past has its own history. every story has its own mystery.

love is not a game.. it's not something that u can just play around with.. it hurts to have your heart broken by someone u really love a lot.. and it's not just that.. love will truly last only if u have trust, faith, confidence and the spirit to go through each obstacle.. there may be many bumps and the road may get a lil jerky and u may have accidents if u don be careful.. and that's how love really is.. those bumps may be problems, arguments, or people that seem to be trying to come in between.. i noe i've driven thru a lot of bumps in the past.. nevertheless, i'm more broken than i should be.. if anyone would ever think that falling in love would be easy, it definitely isn't.. u don't just go round falling for anyone.. there's gotta be spark.. some specialty.. love doesn't just come around every corner.. there's got to be something to achieve and obtain some love.. then again, we would never know that it's love.. there are different kinds of love.. and we wouldn't know which is which that we're having.. we can have love for friends and love for lust.. love for crushes which never lasts.. love for idols and love for looks.. but we should never judge a book by it's cover.. sigh.. i would admit myself that i had not really known what love really is.. actually, i never learn.. everytime i fall in love i would think to myself, so this is what love is! but actually not.. sweaty palms, throbbing hearts, weak knees.. it's just a crush.. love is when u don't even know urself anymore.. u feel like u're on cloud 9.. and the world seem to stop evolving around u.. ur thoughts are often blurred by his face.. u try to please him by dressing up.. u feel hot fire burning in u when he stares at other hot butts.. when u're with him, it's a whole new adventure and u're going down one of the longest road.. u're just willing to do anything to make the relationship last.. and u can never be happier.. and u just don't have a reason for loving him eventhough most people would say they feel special, cared for, wanted, loved.. love doesn't exactly come with a reason.. but it's a word of caution that love is quite a matter of life and death.. u can be lifeless without the one u love.. honest.. love is a special gift that can ONLY be shared by TWO particular people.. i don't mean two particular people in this WHOLE wide world but just the two people that are in love in this world.. love is wonderful.. it's deep.. it's strong.. it's powerful.. without love, one would probably be helpless but i doubt that as there are many bachelorates out there still so no offence but i feel that's how love is for me.. well.. it's obvious that love once broken, it's the end..



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I guess I really have a lot to learn. What led me into writing this back then, foolishness. Knowing nothing, I came to my own assumption. Yet again, I'm only taking my first step. Ah heck!! I should stop reading my old posts. It's doing me no good.