Oops? XD

I know I’ve been missing for very long now. Hehehe. Anyway, been caught up with a lot of.. nothing much(s). =P  Uni life is alright now I guess. =)  Other than that, I’m HAPPY to finally be dancing AGAIN!!! =D  I even did some choreography for our performance during the SSSC Installation Night. The video, I’ll post soon. =P

 

Group photo.

 

 

The girls.

Ah Zoo ; Me

Doraemon ; Joyce

 

These girls are super sweet and funny!! I’m WELL entertained by them. Hehehe.

 

The guys.

 

Chris ; Aaron ; Daniel ; Jason ; Jude

 

Awesome guys that were willing to open up and dance to my couple choreography. And we even made a REAL pair of couple through this choreo. =D

 

 

 

Because I have FAT cheeks! XD

 

 

Then again, I look rather adorable don’t I? =D

 

Mwaaahhh!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!! =)

How did I..

.. let go of something that I love so much..



To be the princess playing the main character in gold..

To falling to the back becoming a side dancer in a new academy..

To flying to my dreams though it's not a full 180..

To dancing through all the pain..

To so much improvement..



I've been dancing for 10 years till the day I left. I've never felt so free and bored at the same time. Dancing had always been my favorite thing to do. When I'm sad. When I'm angry. When I'm just looking for a place to go to. Dancing had always been there. The academy had always been my second home. But now I only have one home. I've no more academies to go to. And I can't go back. I can't let the injury get worse. It's not healing fast enough. As a matter of fact, it's not healing at all. I'm full of misery. But I believe God has His own plans. Maybe ten years is enough experience for me. I've been at Ballet Dance House in association with International Music House for 9 years and then LayNa Dance Academy for exactly a year. Till I left. It's no longer home for me when I went back few weeks ago. Cold treatment is not what I seek. Ignorance is not what I need. I'll get the hint and leave if I know that I'm not wanted or needed. And that was exactly what I did. I left. But right now, I miss dancing very much. =(

=)

It's been more than 10 years. Now, I'm gonna....






to..




..ballet. =)



The injuries are too painful to bear with. Jumping hurts. I don't wanna strain my ankle anymore. =) He is right. If I go back, I'll still disappoint her with my injuries. Not only disappoint her, but disappoint the people around me that cares about my injuries and do not wanna see me flake around. If I try to please her, I won't please the people around me. If I upset her, I'll please the people around me. I'd rather please 10 than 1. =)

I know. It's been 10 years plus.. That's how long I've spent my life dancing ballet. Something that I thought I love. True be it that I LOVE dancing but not the same thing over and over again. I need differences. I need new stuff. I'm not up for the same steps every single week. Dancing the same thing every week. Perfecting the same thing week after week, months after months, year after year. I love dancing. But I hate repeating. I need variety. I need something more contemporary. Something more hyped up. Something more hyper. Something fast. Not always slow. Something with more style. Not always grace and elegance. I need... Something more modern. =)

=)))

This is another random post. =) After cooking and lunching yesterday, I found this in my living room.



A sleeping gorilla. XD

So cute!!! *melts*

At gorilla's mum's shop. I was spinning around. XD Explains the blur effect of the background. Heheheh.



Gorilla snuck me into gym today. After burning off 250 calories and walking 2.4km, I didn't feel any skinnier. =(

So I camwhored.

While he danced.

Then I danced too. XD

And spinned. And finally fell hard and somehow.. squished my right ankle. Now it hurts. *sighs*



Today's been a long day. I'll not say why. But today has been rather eventful. And I suppose, I learned from today. It hurt badly and for one moment I felt pointless and useless living. I'd rather not touch that point. The point here is, today's been a long day. I'm tired and extremely exhausted.

=)

Yeah. I'm in uni now. =) What am I doing?? Research. Darn that MAN better get my Streamyx fixed tomorrow morning or I'll SERIOUSLY sue him!!! Anyway, it's getting a bit boring here. I've done enough research for the night and I'm definite if I continue with this research my head's gonna blow. =.= Not that it's blowing but it blew off twice today........ Two attacks of mild migraine but yeah the Migrastick that my sister gave me really works. And.. Thank goodness for that migraines don't attack me as bad and as long anymore. *breathes* Anyway, my brain is already tired and restless and I guess I need a long sleep. Heck, I'm still wondering if I should stop dancing. Yeah, most of you will ask me not to. I mean, afterall, I've been dancing for a decade now and it would be a total waste of time and money after all these years but it's how much I love dancing that makes me lost and confused here. I know that if I stop now, it would take a long time for me to pick up again and I probably won't be able to do it just the same. Well, I guess I'm gonna take some time to think it over. Right, I should focus on my finals which is the week after next and I don't have enough time to twist around anymore. I won't wanna have regrets. I'm gonna sort my priorities tonight. Maybe a talk with mum will do. And a talk with my principle. The one thing that I dread. I've only been there for a year but it feels like years and my heart is there too. Part of it lives in dancing. And I guess it's gonna be hard to let go............

Other than this, there are other things on my mind too...


I'll stay strong. =)

super random.

I miss...


Dancing.

Badly.

Yes I really mean badly.

Can't you tell...?

=(




Take me back to dancing lane.... I wanna dance... *sobs*

it's over.. =)

need i further elaborate? =) i'm glad it's over and i'm crossing my fingers i did well. =) God knows how I did and that's the best I can give.. Now I can just pray that my ankle will heal for good. =) Thank goodness I went to see the orthophaedic and got some of the best medicines. Then again I gotta thank Wilson for bringing me there [sorry bout the water bottle incident!! =S] and for reminding me to take my med every night knowing how forgetful I can get or worse, LAZY. Anyway, I think it's time for bed. =) Nights and cha chao. =)


*** Self - reminder ***

Study for MATHs coming on Saturday!!! =S

lulalala.

Yesterday halfway during IT tutorial, no wait. Actually it was the start of IT tutorial. Anyway, a migraine started creeping into my head and in the end it hurt sooo badly I was excused from class and headed to the library to sleep. So-called gentleman la this Wilson. I ended up sitting on the floor trying to sleep. XD Then my babey msged me so I went looking for her. XD Hehehe love her to bits. Was walking up and down in the library doing nothing. In the end, I couldn't stand and threw up for the 2nd time yesterday. =.= Was soooo bored didn't know what to do I fell asleep with my head on the table. Friends came and woke me up. Apparently Wilson went off to eat. Didn't wanna wake me up since I was sleeping soundly. Oh well.. Checked the presentation stuffs and blablabla then got so bored till my picture was taken.


I see....

Nothing!!! T_T

Hmm..

Is that...? Sigh sigh sigh.

BLEARGH!!!!! XD



Guess life has been pretty boring. Don't really know what to update about. But anyway...

BALLET EXAM TOMORROW AT 2:35PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M NERVOUS AND SCARED FROM THE TIP ON MY HEAD TO THE TIP OF MY TOES!!!!! =S GOSH GOSH GOSH GOSH GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hehehehe.

=S

Stolen from Sik Soon's blog.


Yeahhh.. Mannequin. LOL



Dancing was fine today. But not towards the last class. It was AWFUL. My ankle was hurting like MAD and it was just so painful I nearly cried dancing. Mum's gonna make an appointment to see the doc for me so yep. =) Apart from the old injury coming back again, I have a swell on my right foot.

Remember this?



Well, they're healed, closed up, skin's grown back and just about 5% left. The only problem now, it's starting to hurt again. EXACTLY the same feeling as when I first got them. The feeling of an overstretched wound. Yep. Despite the fact that the scratches are all GONE, yes. It's the same overstretched feeling at times when I walk or step. And if I bend my knees when it's already irritably painful, it stings deep into my bones. *sigh* Seriously no idea. Gahhhhh. Tony reckons it's infected? But it's not swollen or red. Hmm.. Then again, this morning in ballet, my friends noticed my foot.


See the difference? My right foot?

Yep. It's swollen. =S



Mum said must have been me wearing heels but I told her that the after-scratches were already irritable since before I started wearing heels to school. And I presume the swelling had been there for quite some time just that I've not noticed it. *shrugs* Apart from all the problem I'm having with my right foot....

No more bruises on my right knee!!! =D


But not my left knee. The one on the left is new.


Must have been from 'You Raise Me Up' or 'Colours of the Wind'. Who knows. At least it isn't as bad as last year's. Due to the NUMEROUS rehearsals a week, the NUMEROUS kneeling downs are falling downs or splits I had to do, my knees were FULLY bruised that I couldn't even kneel down in church and I had to wear jeans for quite some time till they disappear. LOL. Anyway.. I'm gonna continue my assignment now. I don't have much to go so I'm not gonna waste time. Toodles!!! =)

I don't know.

Sat - WHOLE OF SARAWAK BLACK OUT. =( It started when I was on the way home from ballet. Dad called to buy batteries and candles. The jam was everywhere!! But mum used a shortcut so we didn't get stuck in any. *phew* Got home, showered, plans all upside down. Still.. Suleen came to pick me about 9. The electricity was back on already. Except in certain areas. Suleen's and mine black out twice. Anyway, there were busy cooking. Dinner. =S Good thing I had mine at home first. XD


Angel hair spaghetti with Suleen's home made sauce and cheese and Alvin's buttered corn.

The butter toasts.

Alvin's home made mushroom with celery soup.

Enjoying their good food.

Yummy yummy.



Well I tried. And for Suleen's pasta, I'll rate a 4/5. =) It IS nice actually. Just that it was rather dry and a bit tasteless but still awesome. Especially with the bread. *clap clap* So much for not having any talent huh babe? It's in you. Just gotta seek it out. (;

Before.

After. LOL

Trying to hide it.

Suleen was washing up the dishes! It was quite a shock for us since she normally tells us to leave it to the maid. XD

Good bread.

Someone threw away the barely used mosquito coil.

At point blank.

What's with the knife...?

NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Candid.

Why that face?

Picking the bread.

Candid.

Crazy.

Yeah.



We were gonna watch DVD but got delayed delayed delayed then there was the moment I took Alvin's car out to McD and 7-11 to get ice creams for them and Slurpee for myself. It took me a whole 10 mins long just to find a parking. Darn PACKED due to the stalls of food blablabla. =.= Went back. Online, then watched Ratatouille. Suleen hasn't watch it yet. I was falling asleep so they were being awfully nice to pause the movie and send me home first which I then fell into deep sleep!! Woke up for church.


Mummy finally got me a full length mirror so I don't have to keep climbing up and down my bed to check the mirror. XD



Came home and slept again after church. Woke up, went for class, came home, destressed myself. XD Oh yea.. I got em bruises again. =S

Sat..

Today. =S I know. Worse than ever. Too much of kneeling during the new dance that we're learning. *gulps* Oh well.. =)




Goodnight!!


P/S : I've listed out my schedule on the right margin. So if you babes and dudes make any plans or anything and wanna know when I'm free, my schedule is there. =D