so i blog on request..

suleen chong u better appreciate this especially after that PAINFUL kick u gave me in my chest!! *sobs* evil..cruel..monster..mean..babelicious ningcompoopy kewt ass!! ^^ lol.. anyway.. here i am.. gonna blog.. and yeah.. i was kicked in the chest by my own beloved bff.. it was last friday.. she was given a piggy by elly the great cos she was being such a pig and at such laziness to walk.. cass was smacking her butt and when i walked near, WHAM! i was half knocked to the ground.. well.. it still hurts a bit.. hmm.. suleen i hate u! anyway.. life's been as usual.. with my baby, life can't be better.. well.. i've to admit.. i'm getting a little frustrated.. mock's just a few blocks away and here i am.. slacking away like life is a rollercoaster and it's a free world and time will tick away slowly.. talking about concentrating, i can't even concentrate on my blogging.. i'm half typing, half distracted.. hmm.. anyway.. sat and sun were it's usual boring daylike self.. with classes and classes and places to go, i'm tired.. exhausted.. my feet hurts.. my big toes are swelling up from dancing on pointe for a duration.. F.Y.I, Ballet and Dance House will hold its concert with IMH next year Jan and best of luck? i'm gonna spring up on my little toes and get a full blast of blister when the concert comes to an end.. especially from all those pirouttes, spins, arabesques and jumps i'm gonna do.. maybe i'll injure my knee again and stop dancing for a period of time.. =/ on second thought, nah..

alright.. bit of interruption.. i'm getting annoyed.. pretty much.. on the edge.. i'm feeling of changing my hp number rite now.. i've had enough admirers(that's wad they call themselves after i ask who r u?) msgin me.. and the odd thing is, all their names start fromt he letter J!! first, Jonathan,26.. 2nd, Joseph, 20?.. 3rd, Joshua,20?.. 4th, Jack, 20+??.. and today, right now, at this moment, Jerry, 22???

i'm astounded.. is the world still spinning on its axis or has the axis broke or something? heck.. i'm not in the mood to waste my credit crapping nonsense with all there strangers.. yet.. perhaps my baby is right.. it might be the same guy, using a different number, different name, just to get my attention.. but!! it cant be.. they each have their own friendster account.. well at least 2-3 of them.. sigh.. i'm lost..

i'm on bad terms.. yeps it's hols i know.. but i miss school.. i miss my friends.. i miss cracking up lame jokes.. i miss burping in class and lately, in the assembly hall when the headmistress was delivering her speech.. i miss playing around.. i miss splashing my friends with water.. i miss going silly things.. i miss my school girl kiddiness.. yes!! i'm a very child-like girl in school.. i can run around.. i'll skip i'll jump i'll hop.. just like any 5 year old in her first kindy years.. which reminds me, i can't do much of those stuff anymore.. my knees are prone to getting injuries.. my calves will get a prickling cramp easily.. especially when i drive without shoes on..

yep! i drove.. mum let me.. well.. very dangerously actually.. so if u want a car ride with me, it's at ur own risk.. first thing i did, sharp cornering again.. next, forgot to change to 2nd gear.. after that, it was a straight smooth road.. next, a turn into a lorong and a dangerous U-turn which i'm not supposed to do as mum's car was only a few centimeters from scratching a white kenari parked next to the house.. =$ worse come to worse, the front tyres nearly landed in the drain but i'm used to it so it was fine but mum nagged me all the way till my happy driving mood flew off.. i was on the verge of plunging on the brake and ask her to walk home instead but, i'm good.. ^^ the routes were narrow and kinda dangerous.. a pretty bad start for me.. mum just realised it yesterday.. said i should start off at our own area first.. now she says so.. sigh.. my leg came to a cramp reaching the lorong turning into my house and i couldn't step on the clutch anymore.. mum took over.. sigh..

yesterday all i did was go to church, danced, walked around imh, played the piano for my teacher.. new grade 7 pieces.. went home.. fixed my new pair of pointe shoes.. my 5th or 6th pair? sigh.. i've so many i've lost count on them.. hmm.. anyway.. i've tuition in one and a half hours.. luckily, i've taken my shower and fortunately, i don't stink.. which pleases me whatsoever.. oh well.. i guess i'm down to my post for today.. oh! people, when u're on the wrong side of the mood of the day, u just want to calm down and rest ur mind, tune in to Light & Easy FM @ 100.1.. it's definitely light & easy and all the songs just set u at ease.. ^^ no i'm not being kuno or whatever u call me but the songs just calms me down and besides, oldies aren't that bad after all..


toodles`

missing everyone of my friends especially my CL and SC and fishy and grasshopper..
love my baby lots..

back`

im finally back to blogging again.. life had been on the peak for days.. weeks.. sigh.. drawing deep breaths, i can merely speak for myself.. i've been trying my best to study, for a betterment of life.. yet, what have i ended up with? distractions.. i can't concentrate.. never can.. even if i do.. it would be just for half an hour.. what can i get into my head in half an hour? plenty if i concentrate.. but at the mean time, almost zilch.. i need a change.. i need to be someone better.. i wouldn't want to be the black sheep of the family.. i want to be smart and do well like my sisters.. all it takes would be hard work.. sometimes, i wish my parents would pay more attention to me.. sometimes, i wish they would try to understand my point of view.. instead of just glooming over me and lecturing me about my studies.. i have my own deep regrets for staying in science stream when i could have appealed for commerce stream and perhaps do better and make my parents' worries less.. but what have i got now? 3 months left to pick up where i left.. i've to work hard.. strive.. perhaps i just need to spend more time in the library now.. where i am away from the computer.. from the tv.. from the vcds.. from the dvds.. i need tranquility.. i need concentration.. and i can't concentrate in the atmosphere i am in now.. i need space.. a place where i can breathe.. perhaps it's time i start to take things seriously.. i'm just one more day to getting a B for my attendance in school this year.. what have i got to say? i've been taken ill a few times.. i've been away for personal things for days.. i've missed school just for the sake of exams.. i've missed school just because my teachers had not been paying much attention to me anymore.. why spend time in school playing the fool when i can try and concentrate on my revision at home? hence, i need a break.. a break from school.. i need holidays.. to study.. for my own good.. i'm not giving up yet.. and i won't.. thus as much as i'm going to try and keep my blog updated though no one reads it at all, i'm going to pay more attention to my studies.. not neglecting my boyfriend as he's the one that gives me hope.. all i need is more time.. but time isn't exactly what i have anymore.. mock is a month away.. i've exactly 30 days to study.. minus 4 weekends for my classes, i only have 22 days left.. i need to organize my schedule.. not going to let myself slack and fall off anymore.. i'm changing.. and i don't care what distracts me, i'm not going to get distracted.. i'm going to pay full attention.. even if i don't pay attention in school, i'll find the free periods to study.. recess would be a small break for me and my friends.. other than that, it's study time.. no more no less.. i don't doubt my own words anymore..

to be updated again..

school??

argh.. exam's over.. it's just a short progressive test.. havent been to school much.. hmm.. got suleen and caryn into it too.. wakakka.. i feel so loved.. lol.. naw just kidding.. well.. haven had enough sleep actually.. hmm.. really need da rest.. woke up early this morning.. for breakfast.. promised my baby.. mum went to pick him up.. went to McD.. ordered our breakfasts and ate.. mum had to go off b4 9 to work.. hmm.. sat thr finishin my second cup of coffee and watchin cartoons on his iPod.. went to the toilet upstairs.. so quiet and dark and creepy.. didn't go in the end.. went to play the slide instead.. ^^ called my baby to come up.. watched me play.. finally had to go to the toilet.. couldn't stand.. walked over to tj to look for some books.. he walked me back to my mum's office and stayed there a while.. oh well.. he left and i had to do some revision.. although exam's over.. sigh.. came home for lunch.. followed mum down again.. went to sp to buy bdae cards for sis.. hmm.. exchange rate's at 2.78.. not enough to change my aussie dollars yet.. sigh.. went back to mum's office.. tried to get some games installed and registered for her.. but it's all about the money! lol.. helped her dl yahoo! messenger.. checked my friendster.. hmm.. went home.. had dinner.. watched my cantonese series a bit.. den some ballet discs.. wargh.. i've been into dancing so badly lately my hips cant stop swingin and my feet cant stop dancing.. ^^ dad came back from siniawan..

dad : wad time the ballet movie end?
me : dono yet..
dad : u're not sleeping dat early tonite rite?
me : er.. don think so? y?
dad : no ar.. wan u go online check airasia to miri durin august hols.. they say after midnite sure have
me : oh.. ok..

oh well.. so here i am.. and i better go check it soon.. it's already 12.22 AM.. ;) hehe.. so.. toodles peeps.. some pics below from this morning.. din get to take any pic of my mum.. oh well.. chao..

me at mcD with mum and kimmy

my coffee

his apple pie.. mine oso actually.. hmm..

listenin to Frank Sinatra..

he forced me to eat the apple pie..

McD is killing me slowly..
the evil within..
wakakaka..
i'm devilicious..
miss my baby..
miss my bff suleen kechong!
miss my bff caryn keling!
miss my gff anthea curly (kelee)!
miss my gff wendy kelow!