updaatteeee~

I know I know.. I've been missing.. Last Friday I had another photoshoot session with my darling. =D Hehehe. I'll just let the pictures speak now. There are 7++ pictures. These are just 10 of it. =)


Getting ready.

I like the lights..

This is my favorite.

This is rather emo. Hahah~

Edited by my dearest~

Very random. =D

The 'cool' look.

It was scorching HOT~!!!!

A random one. =)



And lastly....

Ta-Da~!!!!

Oops? XD

I know I’ve been missing for very long now. Hehehe. Anyway, been caught up with a lot of.. nothing much(s). =P  Uni life is alright now I guess. =)  Other than that, I’m HAPPY to finally be dancing AGAIN!!! =D  I even did some choreography for our performance during the SSSC Installation Night. The video, I’ll post soon. =P

 

Group photo.

 

 

The girls.

Ah Zoo ; Me

Doraemon ; Joyce

 

These girls are super sweet and funny!! I’m WELL entertained by them. Hehehe.

 

The guys.

 

Chris ; Aaron ; Daniel ; Jason ; Jude

 

Awesome guys that were willing to open up and dance to my couple choreography. And we even made a REAL pair of couple through this choreo. =D

 

 

 

Because I have FAT cheeks! XD

 

 

Then again, I look rather adorable don’t I? =D

 

Mwaaahhh!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!! =)

so much.

so much for a beautiful 180 degrees super stretched and straight grande jetes i bummed my right ankle and yeah. the feeling is great. nothing beats what a ‘great’ day i’ve had. my dance partner s*cks. i suddenly hate dancing.

dubs dubs.

So yeah.. I was just thinking recently. That.. Once I reach the 1000th post, I’ll shut my blog down. What say you guys?? It’s my decision but if the rest of you still wanna read I’ll keep it and of course, update it. =)

 

Tomorrow’s Saturday.. Went dancing in Swin earlier.. We were ‘deserted’ by the other dancers so yeah it was only Ah Zoo, Daniel and me. It was brief but yeah. Not bad. =)  Tomorrow’s gonna be another day. And Sunday too. Which reminds me. I’ve some choreography to do!! =S  So yeah. Toodley toots!! =D

=)

Rather awesome day it is today. I woke up 15 mins to 1pm. Been ages since I last did that. =P Hehehe. Anyway, went out after lunch. Where to? Darling's house. I was asked to go in to meet the aunt. =S *shy* We headed to Spring then. Had ice crush. And then SUSHI KINGGG!! We totally ate a lot today. No idea why. Despite the fact that I've already had lunch but yeah I wasn't going to have dinner. =P Then I had chocolate muffin too. =P Hehehe. We had fun in F.O.S trying out all the weird clothes. Especially him. Then we Padini-ed a while. Then we went to buy some oranges. =D Then.. We went back home. And.. I came back home. And.. He went for dinner at church. And.. I went to Boulevard with daddy. I missed him. =)


Hello honey.

I love his self-destructed jeans!! Yep!! He did it himself. =D

Him : We look alike.
Her : Hehehe!

Him : No we look like husband and wife.
Her : Nyahahaha!! XD



You wish!!! ~~ =P



I'm trying very hard to stretch my body fully. I've been trying to lengthen my body so hard to feel the awesome stretch feeling but I can't get it at all. =( No matter how hard I'm stretching from the tip of my head to the tip of my toes, I'm still not satisfied!! =( He said I'm too flexible that's why. =(

I went for acupuncture yesterday. =)

IT
HURTS
LIKE
CRAZY!!!!

My nerves were poked with needles and the slightest movement just hurts. I had to lie oh so still in a very uncomfy position and my thigh got cramped from it. It felt soooo good to stand up and feel all the blood flowing back to the tip of my toes. =P however, my ankle is still not better. I've literally given up on trying to look for cure. =( It's not getting any better. I totally give up. =(

How did I..

.. let go of something that I love so much..



To be the princess playing the main character in gold..

To falling to the back becoming a side dancer in a new academy..

To flying to my dreams though it's not a full 180..

To dancing through all the pain..

To so much improvement..



I've been dancing for 10 years till the day I left. I've never felt so free and bored at the same time. Dancing had always been my favorite thing to do. When I'm sad. When I'm angry. When I'm just looking for a place to go to. Dancing had always been there. The academy had always been my second home. But now I only have one home. I've no more academies to go to. And I can't go back. I can't let the injury get worse. It's not healing fast enough. As a matter of fact, it's not healing at all. I'm full of misery. But I believe God has His own plans. Maybe ten years is enough experience for me. I've been at Ballet Dance House in association with International Music House for 9 years and then LayNa Dance Academy for exactly a year. Till I left. It's no longer home for me when I went back few weeks ago. Cold treatment is not what I seek. Ignorance is not what I need. I'll get the hint and leave if I know that I'm not wanted or needed. And that was exactly what I did. I left. But right now, I miss dancing very much. =(

=)

It's been more than 10 years. Now, I'm gonna....






to..




..ballet. =)



The injuries are too painful to bear with. Jumping hurts. I don't wanna strain my ankle anymore. =) He is right. If I go back, I'll still disappoint her with my injuries. Not only disappoint her, but disappoint the people around me that cares about my injuries and do not wanna see me flake around. If I try to please her, I won't please the people around me. If I upset her, I'll please the people around me. I'd rather please 10 than 1. =)

I know. It's been 10 years plus.. That's how long I've spent my life dancing ballet. Something that I thought I love. True be it that I LOVE dancing but not the same thing over and over again. I need differences. I need new stuff. I'm not up for the same steps every single week. Dancing the same thing every week. Perfecting the same thing week after week, months after months, year after year. I love dancing. But I hate repeating. I need variety. I need something more contemporary. Something more hyped up. Something more hyper. Something fast. Not always slow. Something with more style. Not always grace and elegance. I need... Something more modern. =)

reason why..

I love dancing so much, when I dance, I feel like the world is mine. XD

After all, dancing with the feet is one thing. But dancing with the heart is another. To dance is to be out of yourself. Larger, more beautiful, more powerful.

=)))

This is another random post. =) After cooking and lunching yesterday, I found this in my living room.



A sleeping gorilla. XD

So cute!!! *melts*

At gorilla's mum's shop. I was spinning around. XD Explains the blur effect of the background. Heheheh.



Gorilla snuck me into gym today. After burning off 250 calories and walking 2.4km, I didn't feel any skinnier. =(

So I camwhored.

While he danced.

Then I danced too. XD

And spinned. And finally fell hard and somehow.. squished my right ankle. Now it hurts. *sighs*



Today's been a long day. I'll not say why. But today has been rather eventful. And I suppose, I learned from today. It hurt badly and for one moment I felt pointless and useless living. I'd rather not touch that point. The point here is, today's been a long day. I'm tired and extremely exhausted.

=)

Yeah. I'm in uni now. =) What am I doing?? Research. Darn that MAN better get my Streamyx fixed tomorrow morning or I'll SERIOUSLY sue him!!! Anyway, it's getting a bit boring here. I've done enough research for the night and I'm definite if I continue with this research my head's gonna blow. =.= Not that it's blowing but it blew off twice today........ Two attacks of mild migraine but yeah the Migrastick that my sister gave me really works. And.. Thank goodness for that migraines don't attack me as bad and as long anymore. *breathes* Anyway, my brain is already tired and restless and I guess I need a long sleep. Heck, I'm still wondering if I should stop dancing. Yeah, most of you will ask me not to. I mean, afterall, I've been dancing for a decade now and it would be a total waste of time and money after all these years but it's how much I love dancing that makes me lost and confused here. I know that if I stop now, it would take a long time for me to pick up again and I probably won't be able to do it just the same. Well, I guess I'm gonna take some time to think it over. Right, I should focus on my finals which is the week after next and I don't have enough time to twist around anymore. I won't wanna have regrets. I'm gonna sort my priorities tonight. Maybe a talk with mum will do. And a talk with my principle. The one thing that I dread. I've only been there for a year but it feels like years and my heart is there too. Part of it lives in dancing. And I guess it's gonna be hard to let go............

Other than this, there are other things on my mind too...


I'll stay strong. =)

=)

Nahhh!!! nothing to update.. hehehehe.

Yesss this was what I went for on Sunday..

And it was awesome.. In a way.. Though, SDC got 2nd when they should have won. In my opinion. =) Not just because my boyfriend is dancing in it. =) Also, I got a BIG shock for the day. XD know what? Ask the durians. XD hahhahaha. Okay. Gorilla's mum gave me a big warm hug after their performance. Of course I was shocked. Quite stunned actually. I didn't see her standing there till I heard her voice asking why I didn't hug her too. *gags* hehehehe. Anyway, I was invited for durians!! =D hehehehe. I felt so homey. XD weeehhh. hehehehe. Anyway, I'm in Starbucks now studying my economics with my dumdum gorilla who's dancing away on the sofa. *pulls a lame face* actually craving for something warm to eat now. *thinking of raisin scone or blueberry muffin or toffeenut muffin but decides to push the thought away thinking F-A-T instead* XD

Okay back to econs now. =)

*wishing to poke the gorilla and cuddle him*




P/S : The gorilla just burped out loud in front of me and now singing away L-O-V-E. Remember that song?? I used to put it in my blog and ahh.... *loves that song*

super random.

I miss...


Dancing.

Badly.

Yes I really mean badly.

Can't you tell...?

=(




Take me back to dancing lane.... I wanna dance... *sobs*

it's over.. =)

need i further elaborate? =) i'm glad it's over and i'm crossing my fingers i did well. =) God knows how I did and that's the best I can give.. Now I can just pray that my ankle will heal for good. =) Thank goodness I went to see the orthophaedic and got some of the best medicines. Then again I gotta thank Wilson for bringing me there [sorry bout the water bottle incident!! =S] and for reminding me to take my med every night knowing how forgetful I can get or worse, LAZY. Anyway, I think it's time for bed. =) Nights and cha chao. =)


*** Self - reminder ***

Study for MATHs coming on Saturday!!! =S

i miss....

I miss Pick 'n' Pack.. In case anyone's wondering, it's where I did my part time work few months ago.. I started in mid April till mid July. And I SERIOUSLY miss that place A LOT!!


Where I have so much fun..

Posing..

Sleeping..

Emo-ing..

Falling in love with this darling of mine..

Where we can find our all time male model..

Where girls go crazy!!

And scares people..

Where girls go emo..

Together..

Where you see a very loving couple..

Where you see people trying to look like an ah lian but was called a skinny ah lian..

Without fail..

Where you see a crazy guy who doesn't care what the world says..

Where stress first started with drawing 10 identical mugs..

Pigs are sooo CUTE!! XD

When people give tough orders..

Sushi-ing after every pay..

Lightning McQueen!!

Where people try to be hair stylists..

Where you can find the one and only mega size spongebob big enough to be a mattress..

That can easily kill you..

When I first cooked for my lovely babe..

And noodles too..

And going crazy..

Making BFF badges..

Making toasts..

From making almost 200 badges..

Awesome-st job ever..

Being raped by Patrick Star..

Making this sweet charm for my babe..

Tatty oh Tatty..

Throwing rubbish I LOVEEE..

To dancing in the middle of nowhere..

To Spongebob..

To getting all warm and cuddly..

With a pumped mannequin.. =.=

To making polyshrinks..

Playing with empty cardboard..

To sleeping..

All the time..

To playing..

To enlarging pictures on mugs..

To sleeping and being disturbed..

Seeing cute wannabe mushroom girl..

To dancing in the middle of the shop..

To falling in love with perfume roses..

To sleeping again..

The first thing I made the first time I visited the shop..

Stock taking.. Which is REALLY tiring..

Having your other bestie finally back in Kuching!! XD

To pigging again..

Awww!!! XD

Beautifying toys..

Up to no good..

Can you see me?

Bringing out the child in me..

One of the last few assignments..

Orders from my lovely ballet pal Aidwina and her lovely aunt..

For my dearest sis..

To sticking up sales..

To Tigger!!

To draining all the CO2 out of me..

To playing with the giant hover..

To my last day of work......



I MISS WORKING!!!! AT PICK N PACK!!!!! =(

This post was finally done at 11:02pm.. =P