thursday frenzies..

it was thursday yesterday.. like.. hmm.. duh.. hehehe.. yesterday.. woke up.. mum dragged me down to her office.. did the same usual thing again.. hmm.. after lunch, was gonna go find my chiwi babe.. but mum dragged me to parkson to go to guardian and get our vitamins.. *sigh* went to browse at some clothes then.. applemints and diesel was out for sure.. so went to check out oreef.. hmm.. tried on a pair of denim pants there.. and the skirt in the picture in the post below.. mum said they looked good so it was in our hands.. mum went to look around and spotted a nice black collared blouse from blue toms.. it was M.. looked for S but there weren't any.. only L and XL.. so i went to try.. well, perfect fit.. alright.. got it then.. saw this nice red bolero sweater at chargers.. tried on the M.. was gonna ask the lady to issue when i thought maybe i should ask if they have S.. and they did.. so got the S.. mum was at oreef issuing the items from there.. saw the sweaters.. nice.. tried on the brown one.. mum said looks good.. got it then.. i thought it was kinda big but it's already an S.. hmm.. went to the cashier to pay up then.. mum forgot her bonuslink card.. hahaha!! went downstairs and waited for mum to try on some clothes then.. hmm.. went back to her office at almost 3.. it was already late.. and my mum's boss was coming.. so my mum didn't want to send me to travilion.. sigh.. sorry chiwi babe.. i'll make it up to u alrite?? *hugS*

hmm.. didn't do much after that at mum's office.. went home.. played my piano.. had my dinner.. took my bath.. did the laundry.. went to the airport to pick sis up.. she's here for her marketing trip.. it's in the papers.. canning college representative.. Anna Ting, Assistant Manager, International Office.. hmm.. i didn't know that she's an assistant manager till i saw it in the papers.. hahahha! and i'm her sister.. hmm.. ehehehe.. well.. she was "shocked" to see me.. hehehe.. watched movie on channel 2 after that.. romance.. hahaha! it was okay.. i missed the starting.. started watching at 11.. it was on till 12.30.. then i crawled into my comfy yummy bed.. mmhmm.. hehehe..

total spent at parkson..

Oreef Sweater - rm69.90

Oreef Denim Pants - rm89.90

Oreef Denim Skirt - rm69.90

Blue Toms Top - rm39.90

Chargers Sweater - rm49.90

Overall - rm314.50

total discount - 20%

Overall total - rm255.60

not bad eh? hehehe.. okay okay.. bad i know.. mum said i can't go shopping anymore.. but i don't care.. hehehe.. =) alright alright.. i have nothing else to blog about.. hehehehe.. will post some pictures soon.. toodles! hehehe.. *hugs*

dishy`

hmm.. helped mum out at her office this morning.. sigh.. i was dragged out of bed.. now, i'm, SLEEPY!! hmm.. well.. wanted to sleep after that but was kinda lazy.. slept a while at 11.. till 11.30.. had tummyache.. hmm.. was starving already.. went to order fried rice.. it was SOOOOOO much.. for rm3, it was like 2 bowls of rice.. mum was like.. "must be he see u always don't eat rice so give u so much.." sigh.. *strong hockien accent* "hey tauke! u're making me fat la!" hahaha! well.. it's true.. i've not eaten rice for days.. mainly vege.. maybe that's why i'm putting on weight.. no carbs to burn.. hmm.. yes.. i'm putting on weight.. not just 1kg.. about 2.. *huge sigh* well.. surprise surprise!! caryn drove to pick me up all of a sudden.. she had to borrow the toilet first.. hahahahaha! u're funny darling.. but i still love u.. *hugs* hehehe.. well.. went to park her car at standard charted bank.. then we went over to parkson.. met beatrice at times.. and we ran off with her a while.. hehehe.. she was supposed to be working.. hmm.. walked around.. then i suddenly remembered there's a money exchange at the bottom floor so i went to check the rates.. informed the person that wants to change some money.. went back up to times.. it was almost 3.. trice wanted to go have her lunch at TJ then.. alright.. my foot hurt badly actually.. we went to browse at OREEF.. then the ladies' department.. i love the skirts!!! sigh.. kelvin came.. with his mum.. hahaha yes we were complimenting his super straight hair.. very ah beng.. HAHA!! i'm gonna get killed if he reads my blog.. oh yes.. reaching TJ's entrance my phone rang.. went over to find dumbo and after he browsed around brought him over to TJ.. he was full of hesitation and laziness to go over but at the mention of introducing hot chick he agreed.. hahaha! met up with the two hawt babes at the foodcourt then.. so much FOOD on the table.. hmm.. so much unfinished FOOD on the table after that too.. hahaha! went to walk around.. it was already 3.30.. trice's been out for way too long.. hahaha! went to vincci.. nothing much that.. i was being my quiet usual nothing-to-say out-of-my-mind self again.. went to yishion.. i still owed caryn a bday gift.. my own request.. since she couldn't find any at parkson.. looked around yishion.. she managed to drag me in to try a top on with her again.. hehehe.. kelvin had to go back after that.. "sorry we didn't walk u back after ur effort of coming over to join us yea.." hmm.. caryn got a blouse then.. but it wasn't the one we tried.. it was rm49.90.. on 30%.. so it was rm34.30.. hahaha.. i tried on some pants then.. trice tried on a striped top.. she went off after that.. without saying goodbye.. hmm.. went to giordano a while.. tried on a top.. hehe.. was very expensive for a top like that.. it was already 4.. we didn't know where to go so we decided to go off then.. went to mcD to buy a sundae cone.. it was VERY silly.. everyone knows that the weather's been very hot lately.. i walked out.. reached standard charted.. felt something dripped on my foot.. looked at my ice cream.. it MELTED!! half of it was gone.. okay.. ALMOST half of it.. sigh.. quickly finished it.. didn't want to stain caryn's car.. hehe.. well she dropped me back at my mum's office after that.. MISS U MY CHIWIDEEBOOBANESS!!! hehehe.. boss was around.. seemed a bit busy.. hmm.. was sitting on the sofa when he came out of his room.. was trying to avoid him seeing me.. leaned back.. forgot the table.. forgot the STATUE on the table.. banged my head right into the statue.. the statue shooked.. my head vibrated.. x) felt sooo dizzy after that.. sigh.. mum's colleague was laughing at me.. hehehe.. x) yes i'm getting pretty clumsy lately.. sigh.. oh well.. hmm.. i guess that's all i have to blog for now.. nothing much more.. been updating my blog very often already.. x) *cheers* hehehe.. missing my besties.. *hugs* gonna post the pics we took at frappe soon.. for now.. just check out some few pics below.. =)

we were fooling around..hehehe.. are those skirts nice?? x)

saw this book at Times.. haha!

tried this little angel from parkson yesterday.. B.U.M. equipment.. hehehe..

oreef hot skirt.. yummy.. and so is the price.. *sigh*

3/4 pants at yishion.. it's nice.. but expensive!!

ooooo yeahhhh.. tuberlicious from giordano.. price? rm51.. for a tube..

my bump.. it's worse now.. but not that BIG anymore the swelling.. hmm..






`signing out..

tuesday nights..

current song playing,
The Bright Side - Dave Koz

hmm.. it's just another tuesday night.. another night is about to pass.. and here i am.. sitting here.. bidding my time.. =)

went to check out some phones earlier this afternoon.. hmm.. choosing between, nokia 6288, 6300, 6233, n e65.. hmm.. don't think i'll get e65.. the features wont be anything much when i get to aus anyway.. but then again.. =) it's very sleek and sexy and slim and i love it.. hehehe.. 6233's a lil.. erm.. well.. not that nice.. hehehe.. but 6288 is nice.. though it's a lil bulky.. hmm.. 6300 is slim too but there're no side buttons to press for the camera n stuff.. oh well.. i still have time.. currently waiting for my.. LAPTOP!!! yay.. hehehe.. thanks mummy!! thanks daddy!! *hugs n kisses* hehehe.. hmm.. i don't know what else to blog about.. i'm in an extremely good mood for once.. x) thanks to all my sexy buddies.. hehe.. love u guys lots!! *hugs* ahhhh.. i'm not in the mood for sleep at all tonight.. hehehe.. but then again.. i've to wake up early tomorrow to go to my mummy dear's office.. i'm soooo tired of her boss.. hehehehe.. who's the boss? Ong Kee Hui's son, Ong Ka Ting's cousin.. when i see him, i run to hide in the meeting room.. hehehe.. somehow i hate seeing him.. but then, i can't hide from him forever rite? except today i didn't see him at all.. ahhh.. x) thanks again to my sexy buddies!! hehehe.. but, too bad couldn't hang out longer.. we'll make up to it alwite babes? hehehe.. *hugs* miss u guys heaps! hehehe..











*ivanna starts dancing around happily*





oh and guess what?? i got TWO new bruises today.. =( was at parkson, stationary section.. they have some toys on display there.. halfway walking out between the shelves, the area was small and narrow.. next thing i know, i bumped my leg into one of the short shelves in the middle of nowhere.. then my foot hurt.. couldn't walk.. pulled my jeans up, WHOA!!! the bruise.. u wouldn't believe it if i tell u rite? hehehe.. it was a roundy ball.. the size of the ankle bone.. hmm.. bigger than a bird's egg that is.. and it was HUGE and it hurt soooo badly i limped all the way to the hotel to wait for my mum.. the swelling reduced of course.. but my foot's swollen too now and it still hurts when i walk.. sigh.. =( just my luck..

questionaire`

i've sent this msg out to some friends.. hehe.. those that didn't receive it, u may leave a comment for ur answer.. *hugs*

1) If i die one day, would you cry for me?
2) To you, am i an important friend?
3) What thing do you like about me?


Please answer honestly..


=)



thanks to..
caryn..
suleen..
anthea..
happy..
jerry..
kelvin..
steve..
dexter..


for ur honest answers.. especially ques 3.. i know i'm an insaniac.. hehehe.. *hugs*

tuesday mornings

this could be the start

of something new

it feels so right

to be here with you

and now looking in your eyes

i feel in my heart

the start of something new..

hehe.. this song's playing on my phone media player now.. so i'm bored.. hehehehe.. hmm.. it's just another tuesday morning.. last nite i had a totally bad night.. why? I GAINED WEIGHT!!! =( those of u that are always telling me that i'm skinny, i'm putting on weight already okay??? i feel so bad right now.. makes me wanna barf..

coach said to, fake right break left..

i'm mad.. hehehe.. hmm.. last nite i had totally nothing to do.. watched my vietnamese bride.. again.. hehe.. i like the chinese song the girl sang..

'mei you le ai de ren smth smth smth smth'

hehehe.. in english it's when u have no more love then u'll know what hate is.. hmm.. it's sweet.. i like soft songs.. as caryn puts it.. sentimental..

when ma rimba rhythm starts to play..

did i get it right? hehehe.. i'm so full with songs right now.. but i've not cracked my voice yet so i can't sing.. hehehe.. i don't really have much to post actually.. just blogging for the fun of updating my blog.. =) i'm not keen to draw any attention alrite? just feel like blogging.. hmm..

boy, no matter what we go thru, u step up i'll step too

that's step up from the movie step up.. hehehehe.. i'm gonna take my nap soon.. my mum's comp is weird.. hehehe.. the time's not right.. *bang* hee hee.. anyway, i'm tired.. n sleepy.. n my fingers r painful.. n my arm hurts.. n my shoulder hurts too.. hee hee.. x) i'm so problematic.. hehehe.. and im wondering why i keep going "hehehe" or "hahaha".. i feel so hyper active.. but then again.. =) i'm speechless.. hehehe..

boom!!

hmm.. if u're wondering, i'm at my mum's office.. =D hehehe.. woke up this morning.. was babying in bed..

mum: *sits on da bed next to me*

me: *stirs*

mum: *spank my bums* u following me down or not??

me: *nods head* mmm...

mum: den faster go get ready liao..

dad: *stands at the door* come wake up we go eat ah hong..

me: *zzz*

mum: *takes bolster n spank my bums* wake up liao.. go get ur things ready first.. then bath.. the floor is dry now.. go get ur things ready first.. else later u start running around the house..

me: mmm...

hehehe.. so i dragged my sorry bums out of the room.. dad went for breakfast himself then.. hung my clothes in the closet.. went to take my bath.. my hair's getting softer now i wash it almost twice a day.. hehehe.. decided to have canai for breakfast.. went to ta pau 2 plain ones n 2 egg with onion ones.. went to mum's office.. ate.. yummy.. hehehe.. been making luncheon plans with my chiwi babe.. then i went to sleep on the sofa.. slept for about 2 hours?? woke up at 11.. so sleepy.. chiwi msged.. mum asked to go check the car if someone is blocking.. went to check, told ALI, one of the mechanics whose car is it and he went to check and the person moved and i went in mum came down.. got in the car and went to pick my babe.. i just woke up, still very blur, throat dry, and was under the sun.. halfway there called her and she said she can't go out yet.. hmm.. so turned back to the office.. came out of the car, one of the mechanics asked, "why u walk like u're flying??" =.= is there something wrong with the way i walk?? haih.. anyway, called the money changer at SP n TJ for mr kelly on US rates.. tsk tsk rich kid.. funnily, mohd yahya gave me the rate 4.8? TJ gave me 3.54.. 0.o mum was like.. why such a big difference?? did he make a mistake? hahaha.. well mum called mohd yahya n checked again then he said that today's rate isn't out yet.. okay.. so will call back again.. hmm.. then caryn came over for lunch.. her fren melvyn dropped her off.. hee hee.. we went for the fastfood next door.. yummy.. =D then we went over to upwell.. caryn wanted to loosen her shoe.. hehehe.. and buy chewing gum.. hmm.. her phone rang and she had to go then.. =( ended with a yummy hug.. =D miss u babe!! XOXO hehehe.. anyway, the office was empty.. so i played some games.. then mum came called my phone and asked me where am i.. told her i'm upstairs.. she came up.. got her things.. waited for dad's call and then went off to the bank.. they're gonna open a SDB.. Safe Deposit Box.. so i've been online and blogging, checking my friendster and playing games.. very bored.. maybe i'll stay home tomorrow.. =D ah but i'll be even more bored alone at home.. wish my friends stay near by.. then i might just be able to go over.. sigh.. =( anyway.. i've nothing much else to say already.. hehehe.. so i guess that's all for now..

x)

currently missing

chiwi babe

apple tart

fishy cake

happy meal

and lots more..

x)

love u guys heap!! heehee..

*big yummy wiggly squiggly hugs*

oh no!! my phone's crystal case has a lil scratch!! =( sob..

dubby di dubab sherbab bab

hahaha my title makes me wanna laugh.. anyway, was gonna blog days ago but my comp was lagging soooo.. i didn't blog.. =) anyway, been to travilion soooo often i'm sick of it already.. hehehe.. especially frappe.. the stinkin lady didn't let caryn n i order iced water the other day.. =.= ughhhh... probably cos we ordered 3 iced water that day.. i got ice blue curacau.. sat in there waiting for anthea n kelvin.. n caryn to finish her class.. they all came at almost 3.. got very dull and boring in the end.. hmm.. ANTHEA THANKS FOR LETTING ME HUG U!!!!!! hahaha.. oh yes.. i finally found a wallet to use for the mean time till i go kl or somewhere and get myself a nice one.. hmm.. went to frappe too on monday.. suleen came n meet up with us.. we took LOTSA pictures which i desperately tried to post up but it was soooo slow.. haih.. hmm.. where was i? oh yes.. caryn ordered kaya toast, i ordered garlic bread, n we asked for iced water.. the lady asked the waitress to tell us no more iced water.. =.= *bangs head* hehehe.. it's such a flimsy excuse for her to use.. just to keep her business running?? caryn was eyeing the money box on the counter.. there was a rm5 note that she was drooling over.. hahahaha!! oh yes.. b4 that we went to watsons.. i got myself two packs of skittles, one fruity, d other sour.. caryn got herself an XXL lolly of cola flavour that she ended up grossed with n threw away.. hee hee.. n i was sooo annoyed with the lady at frappe i stuffed my skittle's packet between the cushions.. hehehehe.. i know.. i'm a bad girl.. x) hehehe.. we went to point one.. but it felt so.. open.. so we went back to frappe.. it was raining.. so my lovely new shoes that i got the day before cos the one i was wearing broke got a bit wet at the base.. it's velvety.. hmm.. 16-1+1 again.. hehehe.. oh n my mum got d broken shoes fixed so it's.. 16+1=17.. hehehe.. x) anyway, juliana[ex-bl] came in to join us.. funny she remembers me.. okok.. i remember her VERY well.. x) wendy join us a lil later.. she spent two hours in rock shop.. =.= hmm.. so we went off to raymond.. wendy wanted to get a haircut.. raymond seemed a bit amateur.. the hair was like.. not balanced.. out of shape or something.. n he was trying to fix it in a way.. hee hee.. anyway caryn n i went down to spy on someone n it was soooo funny.. we tried taking a photo but it was too far.. n i knocked my head hard into the wall.. it's not swollen anymore.. x) i get a new bruise everyday.. so i'm used to it.. hehehe.. friday caryn came over to my mum's office instead cos some bumsteed had no car to drive.. we both had had our lunch but my parents came in with their lunch trays n we drooled.. hehehe.. so caryn ordered fried rice.. it was VERY yummy.. she ate more than half and left the rest.. so i finished it up quickly while she was in the toilet n sent it back to the shop.. hehehe.. later we walked over to upwell n she bought a pair of "wawa" shoes from one of the shops in there.. i bought mine there.. the lady was nice to give her a discount of rm11.90.. x) she told us those covered up getups are called wawa shoes.. hee hee.. sounds weird.. anyway caryn didn't bring enough cash so i payed first.. then we walked over to Bumiputera Commerce so she can withdraw money.. hehe.. rm50.. i gave her 20 n she gave me 50.. we were laughing all the way and imagining what her mum will say when she check her account.. hee hee.. it was a lil drizzling when we walked over to TJ.. i've been very naughty on the road.. and caryn had to endure the way i cross the road cos she hates crossing the roads n i've to ring her arm.. hehehe.. well, we sat in the foodcourt there laughing.. ordered drinks too.. then we walked around.. spent some time at vincci.. helped her choose her shades.. she trusts my taste.. hehehehe.. it looks good on u darling!! x) we were gonna get this pendant with our initials C n I.. miss S missing.. hehehe.. the rm7 looked weird.. the rm6 looked even weirder.. they looked nice on display though.. hmm.. anyway.. we tried on some denim skirt at yishion.. hahaha.. n snapped pics.. sickening caryn took a pic of herself n accidentally snapped my bums.. hahaha! yessss we shared one fitting room.. it was very funny n cute.. hahaha! we went over to SP when the rain got smaller.. actually it stopped raining.. we walked around.. went downstairs.. browsed.. went to pop-in.. laughed at nothing.. haha! her dad came to pick us up n dropped me off at my mum's office again.. thanks uncle!! though u don't read my blog.. hehehe.. well.. i've been out everyday.. oh yes.. caryn escaped class on tuesday.. hee hee.. so i forced her out to town.. we sat in coffeebean.. it was really silly.. the guy was actually flirting with us.. hahaha! we ordered chocolate fudge cake.. my all time fav.. it's SUMPTUOUS if u dip it into americano.. x) i had one small ice blended cinnamon.. caryn had one regular honeydew.. n the guy was soooo nice to give us LOTSA whipped cream to go with our cake.. we felt so fat n bloated after that.. hee hee.. wendy came over from riverside.. there was an edu fair going on there!! so we went over.. hehehehe.. it was nothing much.. saw some people there.. hmm.. mum came to pick me up after that then.. yesterday was a long day for me.. i went late.. a LIL late okay? but class had not started yet.. started with warm ups.. the best was watching them try and balance themselves on one leg.. i'm such a bully.. hehehehe.. x) anyway, went for lunch at bdc after that.. my didi chia-ed.. our driver was very nice but flimsy n trying to annoy me.. hahaha! they both ordered cantonese mee which turned out to be kueh teow instead.. i ordered laksa nyonya which turned out to be spaghetti? mum said it's a type of beehoon but i'm sure it's spaghetti eh? hmm.. i ordered lime juice, our driver ordered iced chocolate, it was hot chocolate on the menu, jerry ordered erm.. well.. "pussy foot".. hahaha! it was red in colour.. n someone started with some jokes when we were eating n i could hardly eat after that.. ahhaha! well i didn't finish my "laksa" so my didi was very nice to help me finish it.. which, was a bad thing.. cos he fin his drink already.. hahaha! he was stuffing ice cubes from his glass into his mouth n we were laughing like crazy at him.. okay.. I was laughing like crazy all the time.. hahaha! i pitied him n offered him my drink after that.. heehee.. the bill? rm30.70.. how much he brought? rm30.. n an rm1 which i don't know he took from where.. haha! we went over to a shop the next block.. i got my reload, sent rm3 to chiwi babe though she didn't ask for it.. =) love u babe! hehehe.. n they sent me back to imh after that.. felt so bloated so i just sat there and took care of the player while my teacher went round.. hehehe.. i know.. i'm a lazy bum.. x) well, i came home, ate, bath, fell asleep on my super soft bolster.. hee hee.. i'm prone to sleeping after bath.. i'm just like a baby.. hahaha! mum came in and started spanking my bums like mad.. x) it HURTs!!!! well.. watched tv a while.. boring.. hmm.. slept in a mess after that.. haha! my phone was charging n lying at the foot of my bed.. i was, somehow, somewhere, lying on my bed.. not hugging anything.. cos i just plopped myself down.. woke up at 4 smth.. looked for my bolster.. hehehe.. hand was searching the bed, found something soft, tried to pull it, put it was pulled away.. turned to look, mum's bolster.. hahahahaha!! found my bolster after that.. my phone finished charging.. went back to sleep.. woke up at 6.. sneezed.. hmm.. sneezed again.. mum teased.. came in, told me not to sniff the blanky.. hehehe.. it was hers.. she was dressed.. going to the graveyard with my aunts n uncle.. went to the bathroom.. went back to sleep after that.. woke up at 7.45.. mum left already.. was lying in bed.. stunned.. as usual.. hehehe..

dad: nak?
me: *looks out* hmm?
dad: awake liao ha? go wash up we go have breakfast at ah hong's[noodle house]..
me: o..

hehehe.. went to get ready then.. had "kiaw".. yummy.. came home, still early.. 8 smth.. was lying in bed there.. still stunned.. x) hehehe.. fell asleep eventually.. woke up at 9.. was still very blur.. the next thing i know, i kicked into the foot massage machine that was sticking out from under my mum's bed at the entrance of the room, lost my balance, and slammed my right arm into the doorframe.. so now there's a swell there which hurts a lot.. no bruise yet.. took my bath.. dried my hair.. n started digging my closet for clothes to wear.. was gonna settle for my 3/4 sleeve white collared cheetah blouse n my brown diesel skirt.. i looked soooo kiddy.. hehehe.. then i remembered.. i wore my brown diesel skirt last week.. hmm.. so i changed out of everything.. which was a good thing.. else someone would call me a copycat.. hahaha! dad was running a lil late then.. left the house kinda late.. dad was nagging.. so by the time we reached the church, i wasn't exactly in the mood for the sermon.. but there was quite an interesting part then.. heehee.. i'm not gonna say it here.. hahaha! dad wanted to go asap then when service finished.. we arrived late so the parking spots with shade were taken.. hmm.. went home to pick mum up.. went to have lunch.. then ballet.. then piano.. i did good in aural today.. hehehe.. managed to sing out the bottom phrase without a single mistake the first time.. second time sang a wrong note but it didn't matter.. sight-singing was good.. i managed to crack my voice b4 i went to church then.. so it felt good.. been singing whole day.. heehee.. dad n mum picked me up then.. went to buy AIS KACANG!! yummy.. hehehe.. well.. i walked into the wall by accident.. x) hehehe.. after dinner, dad went out.. so i took my bath, then played piano.. till my wrist hurt sooo badly.. sigh.. ignore the pain then.. hmm.. watched some tv.. pck.. hehehe.. nothing else to watch after that.. so i lingered around then came online to blog.. x) hehehe..




well, life's been like that.. x) nothing more.. i realise that i've been laughing a lot.. heeeheee.. see!! okay.. i'm weird.. n currently very hungry.. sigh.. i'm always hungry after 12.. hmm.. oh well.. that's all.. i'll put up some pics soon.. at the mean time, gloat at nothing.. hehehe.. huggies!!!

who am i to kid..`

ivanna is such a BABY!!









x)










i feel intimidated.. i'm not trying to catch anything.. i'm just being myself.. but i get misunderstood easily for my actions.. well from now, i'll be more mean, stubborn, stuck up, sarcastic, hateful n ignorant.. settles things.. makes life easier..




















full with apologies to whomever that's mistaken anything..

`marinated in peach cocktail, topped with squiggly straws..

picsies pigsies

hmm.. yesterday.. saturday.. the same long boring day.. came home feeling mighty skinnier.. hahaha! my muscles hurt badly right now.. n i'm aching all over.. =( i don't think i've done that much stretch before.. oh wait.. i did.. last week.. n the week before.. n the WEEKS before.. honestly i'm tired of this little unpaid job that i have to do every saturday.. i spend 8 hours on the dance floor assisting and i get no profits.. i wouldn't have bothered if i weren't bored and tired from sitting at home doing nothing u know? so alright.. i drag my sorry butt out of bed at 7 in the morning to dance my butt off.. hmm.. well.. i was warming up with the second batch.. amanda's class.. she came in late in this cute little get-up.. n when i glance at her my tummy ruffles up and i start laughing.. but i had to hide it.. i was half laughing half counting.. hehehe.. a bit mad.. so i pulled an almost straight face, but crack up when we bend over to touch our toes.. hahaha! well.. lesson was boring as usual.. i think i'll pass grade 8.. hopefully with distinction.. like my grade 7.. hehehe.. i missed two distinctions.. wait izit 2? hmm.. don remember.. well.. i went through my dances filled with emotion till i nearly cried.. hehehe.. sounds sad huh? my teacher has no comment so then i knew i did fine already.. i'm ready for the exam babeh~!! bring it to mua!! *squeals n hides face with bolster* huhuhu.. i feel so lame.. hmm.. well i earned a new lil bro.. JEREMIAH HII.. *applause* for being very "kuai" n listening to ur big sis here, i'll give u a lollypop okay? hahaha! hmm.. i'm bruises all over.. hehe.. can't really move much.. my shoulders crack almost all the time.. sigh.. woke up at 8 this morning.. got ready for church.. dragged myself into the living room, grabbed the sin chew papers, turned to page 6 n did the daily sudoku.. =P call me freak but i love to keep my mind thinking.. n i love numbers n math.. =) hehehe.. had my breakfast.. some pasties.. yummy.. went to church.. my jeans were washed.. n the rest weren't that comfy.. settled for my yummy diesel skirt.. hehehe.. kinda embarassing.. cause it's been weeks since i last wore a skirt out.. n i should probably get used to it.. gonna play in church soon.. hmm.. wont b going to fmc after next week.. sigh.. anyway, i have bruises all over my legs.. so it was very embarassing.. hehe.. went to have lunch after that at the coffeeshop next to mum's office.. the mechanic was teasing me again.. ahhhh!! x) *blushes a deep shade of maroon* hahahaha! caryn i know u're soooo gonna laugh at this.. hehehehe.. hmm.. went for ballet after that.. it was only 1.. my class starts at 2.. well i have nothing better to do so i went there.. sat there n lazed n laughed n teased like a piggy.. oh n i lost my ring yesterday.. =( feeling very depressed.. my mummy bought it for me.. sigh.. can't find it anywhere.. it's kinda loose so i guess that's why it slipped off without me realising it.. had piano after my ballet today.. as usual, i didn't practise my scales.. i just banged it through.. hehehe.. ended up getting laughed at by my teacher as usual.. sigh.. am i that hilarious? XD oh well.. can't help it.. i'm a banana so i must b very slick n slippery all the time.. hehe.. went shopping with mum after that.. always do that when i'm depressed or upset or not in a good mood.. hmm.. oh well.. came home.. had dinner.. bath.. watched The GODS must be crazy II with mum.. watched the first yesterday.. it's SUPER hilarious.. very silly n funny.. hehehe.. anyway.. came online to update my blog.. hmm.. i guess that's all.. hehehe.. some pics below to gloat at.. =P love u peeps! hehehe..



baby amanda.. i kept laughing during warm up.. couldn't help it.. she looked sooooo CUTE in her leotard..hehehe..love her lots..

a sweet black dress..hehehe.. it has this really cute ribbon rose in front.. cant see it clearly..

hmm yeah can kinda see it now.. it's on my right.. ur left.. hehehe!

do i look kinky? hehehe..

i love this the most.. it has this sophisticated yet sexy look.. yummy.. it's kinda long so u can see that it's covering my skirt..

a whole bunch of kids' mini skirts?!?! kids nowadays..

n hot shorts?? sorry it's kinda blur..salegirl staring at me.. hehehe..














i miss my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! x)

HELP!!!`

HELP!!!




there's a mom planning to kidnap me tomorrow at 12pm
sigh..
somebody help meeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

















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suddenly..
i feel like eating kolo mee.. hehehehe!!

x)




n my mummy is being annoying..
first she complains that i'm too fat..
now..
she's complaining that i'm too skinny..
n my bones are always cracking..
my right shoulder bone cracks every now n then..
she's always teasing that my bones are poking her when i walk with her..
=.=
mummy wad do u wan me to be?!!?!?
FAT or SKINNY!?!?!?!
grr..

just another day..

hmm.. today is just another normal day.. i didn't get to do anything today.. woke up this morning.. i've been missing breakfast for days.. lazy.. well, weighed myself.. i lost another 1/2 kg.. x) pleased with myself.. hehehe.. well.. didn't do much.. played some piano.. ballade pour adeline, marriage de amour, frere jacques, canon in d, message in a bottle and reflection.. took my bath.. had my lunch.. went out to tj.. just stayed in popular, read charmed "pied piper".. cried bits of tears halfway.. felt so alone.. sigh.. finished off my water n threw the bottle away.. bought a bottle of mineral water at the food court.. got myself erm.. two pocket knives? x) please don't anybody kill me cos i didn't do anything okay? well.. went over to SP.. i WAITED for the traffic light okay? n i donated 20 cents to the red crescent outside tj.. went over to sp n told them i donated already.. got my rm20 reload.. gavin called.. he saw me.. he's at tj.. alone.. so i went over to tj again.. i didn't wait for the traffic light this time.. so slow and.. well.. =) donated rm1 outside sp to the red crescent.. told them to keep the sticker.. went over to tj to meet up with gavin.. he treated me to a glass of iced milo.. thanks! hehe.. n i treated him to the toilet.. well we went over to sp after seeing his friends off.. got myself some tid-bits n he gave me rm2 for it although it was rm3.40.. thanks again! went back over to tj n donated another 20 cents to the RC members.. hehehe.. i took the sticker n stuck it outside LEVI's.. hehehe.. waited for my mum at the entrance n chatted.. hmm.. came home after that.. played piano.. had my dinner.. took my bath.. mum wanted to watch because i said so.. it was boring and she fell asleep herself.. i went to do the laundry and came online.. to blog this post.. x) hmm.. i'm very hungry right now.. hehehe.. anybody wanna bring me out to supper?? x) anyway.. that's all.. some pics at random below..



the ghost of me.. do u see me? hehehe.. x)

should i keep my natural straight bit wavy hair?

or should i perm it n make it curly?

im a bunny

sound asleep.. i look soooo messy.. hehehe..

that's my latest niece.. she's sooooo cute.. but NOBODY'S allowed to touch her.. she'll stare at u fiercely n kick u away.. bad girl ey? we call he ting ting..

now do i have any similarity to her?? i'm strong rite? that's a whole bucket of rice u noe?? hehe.. n i was..2? 3?

my sis' hot shorts.. she calls it her piece of green leaf..

i was walking at the toy shop on the 2nd floor of SP n i saw this in the shop.. =.= among the valentine gifts..

my latest shorts.. it gives me the tomboyish look.. good on me..

i never get to post this.. that's made out of wire.. hehe..

my bunch of wire twists..

oh my bolster..

tried this at catwalk.. hubba hubba.. i didn't get it but if i did, i definitely wont wear it out.. hehehe.. x)

oh n in courtesy of caryn who took this pic of me laughing[i can't even see my eyes] at jade pot tea house.. hehehe..









rawdy blarawdy..?? hmm.. i'm a bit mad.. i'm VERY lonely and bored.. sigh.. wish i have some friends over to keep me company..



hugs


=)

untitled..

hmm..alright.. i have no idea what title to put for this post.. i was going to post last night but some people suddenly decided to crash over my place and cheer me up.. =) thanks babes! anyway, went out with caryn n happy yest[wed]..to jade pot tea house.. i went up to tun jugah first.. met suleen and gary there.. walked around with them.. helped kelvin get his "magnetic" earrings which he just lost.. >< u clumsy piggy turtle! anyway, went over to sp.. helped suleen choose a gift for sharon's bdae.. it was a cow.. hehehe.. passed mr bully his earrings.. =.= met up with happy.. went to pick caryn up.. went to jade pot.. sat there, drank there, cried there.. hmm.. happy dropped me off at my mum's office, upwell after that.. dum dum fishy din get to join us.. hmph! WE KNEW IT FISHY!!! anyway, when we left the place, i figured that kelvin will call when we leave already.. i was right.. at 5.39pm,


me: *mobile rings* huhuhu i knew it..
kelvin: eh r u guys still at jade??
me: nope
kelvin: u at home?
me: nope
kelvin: whr u guys now?
me: *dying to burst out laughing* im on my way home happy n caryn on their way home..
kelvin: kayyyyy nvm..
*hangs up*
me: *starts cracking up*


huhuhuhu..my predictions were right.. ahhahaha! actually we waited for the bumsy for hours at jade.. caryn was raving about wanting to be single.. 5 mins later, she raved about wanting to have a bf.. 5 mins later, she raved about wanting to be single again.. x) babe u gotta set a goal in ur mind n heart alrite?? if u're reading this, cheer up k? it's tough for everyone.. but u will always have us alrite? *hugs*

anyway, reached home.. took my bath.. i was soooo blur.. dad asked me to bath n i just grabbed my towel n walked right into the shower.. haha! anyway.. caryn happy n anthea crashed over after that arnd 8.30.. i was watching tom n jerry with mum n dad halfway.. hey don laugh! it's how i can get my parents to sit down in the living room like a reunion alrite?? =) then i heard this car outside.. i looked out the window.. this white merz.. drivin in n out of my driveway.. n finally parked at the side.. hehehhee.. anyway.. helped caryn drew her work.. again.. i don mind actually.. hmm n we bugged anthea into asking my dad whether i can go for supper with them.. hehehe..


caryn: eih uncle..
dad: hmm?
caryn: *points at me* ivanna's good at drawing leh
dad: yeah she has talent.. y u wan her go limkokwing?
caryn: hehehe..
happy, anthea, me: *looks at each other n starts laughing hysterically*


hahaha! anyway.. we went for supper at the noodle house nearby.. i watched only.. n finished off caryn's last bits of kueh teow.. wasting ar u.. hehehe.. so they sent me home after that n i showered them with hugs n kisses.. my neighbour was looking out the window the whole time cos caryn simply parked outside their house.. hahaha! hmm.. i came online.. n my phone rang halfway at around 11.. my dear bro caleb.. wanting to crash over so suddenly.. hahaha! thanks bro! so i went over to the shoplot n we sat on the bonnet n catched up with each other for kinda long.. walked me back at 1.30am.. whoa.. hehehe.. i was shocked myself.. i never stayed out till that late b4.. but i appreciate this surprising crash overs to cheer me up.. so i went to bed at about 2.. had bad dreams.. weird.. i dreamt that my phone rang n i answered it n some mambo dude was asking me how to spell some words that he needed.. weird rite?? n i dreamt of galactic menace.. a game i used to play.. so u can imagine all d spaceships n bombs n guns n rifles.. hahhaha! hmm ok..

woke up around 9 smth.. body aching all over.. was it a dream?? nope it wasn't.. hmm.. helped dad with the laundry a while.. while keeping the string..


dad: haih.. i treat them like my own daughters..[caryn happy n anthea]
me: *grins*
dad: they can come to find me when i'm bored.. at least i'll have people to chat with..
me: hehehe..
dad: but u're not here so they won't come either..
me: hmm..
dad: i should make them my foster kids..
me: errr..


hahaha! i alrdy have 3 sisters n that's enuff for me.. =) no offence.. i would love to have them as my sisters.. hehe.. hugs! so.. went out just now.. followed mum to hong leong bank at main bazaar only to find out that they've moved.. so went to wan sin goldsmith to change my anklet's bell.. i got it cleaned too.. so now it's extra shiny n super tinkly.. i wont b able to play hide n seek.. hehehe.. so went to tj.. first thing i did was go to the toilet.. NEVER drink lotsa water b4 u go out.. urghhh.. so kelvin went to pick caryn up first den picked me from tj.. n we went to crowne square.. caryn got her hair cut at mcphee.. kelvin was with his frens at waterhouse.. i was somewhr walking around mopping n drowning myself in deep thought of nothing.. merely trying hard not to break down.. ended up wanting to jump off from the verandah.. huhuhu.. x) so anyway caryn got herself some ice cream downstairs.. n we went off after that.. dropped me off at my mum's office.. came home.. shed bitter tears.. well.. a bit.. i don't know why but i just wanted to cry.. i'm not sad.. i'm not depressed.. i'm normal.. but at that moment.. i just felt so tiny.. so fragile.. so i just cried.. hmm.. watched tom n jerry with mum.. watched halfway nite b4.. watched prince n me 2.. came online.. blogged.. hehe.. hmm.. i think i'm gonna go retire to bed.. nitey nites.. *hugs n kisses*

happy..
thanks for being there..
for ur advices..
caryn..
thanks for listening..
for being silent n understanding..
anthea..
thanks for being such a sweetheart..
u rock..
suleen..
thanks for being there when i needed u..
cant wait to hang out with u..
kelvin..
thanks for being there too at times..
for listening n being patient[quite la]..
thank u babes..
love u guys lots..
hugs!!

after some serious thoughts.. i realised that.. i don't need boyfriends to show me what love is.. i have my frens.. my family.. my foster brothers.. they've always been there.. and i thank them a lot.. and i'm grateful for them.. i thank God for sending them to me.. just like the sun on a dark rainy day.. =) thanks again guys.. miss u guys lots.. hehe.. *bigs fat warm twiggly huggies!!*

tuesdays`

today isn't ordinary..
it isn't special either..
it's just another of ivanna's days..

=)



i'm lucid..
i'm invisible..
i'm bountiful..



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some things are not worth crying over..



like spilt milk..





=)

SMILE!!

i know i am..
because i'm happy..
happy for myself..







life can be difficult..
the road may get bumpy..
but never lose your faith..
trust in God..
He's always there for you..
He's with you wherever you go..
you can always find Him..
in you..


=)







trust..
*hugs*

















P/S: i need more shorts!! beach pants!! shorts!! any idea?? ehhehe

funny story!!

Dua ekor hantu bertemu dan bercerita
bagaimana
mereka mati......

Hantu 1 : Bagaimana kau boleh mati?

Hantu 2 : Aku mati akibat kesejukan...

Hantu 1 : Macam mana rasanya mati dlm
kesejukkan
tu?

Hantu 2 : Sebenarnya aku terkurung
dalam peti
ais...mula2 aku cuma menggigil, lepas
tu anggota aku
mula membeku, kemudian aku rasa dunia
aku gelap
dan akhirnya.....tapi aku rasa
bersyukur kerana aku
mati tanpa banyak kesakitan....

Hantu 1 : Ishhh...kesiannya kau

Hantu 2 : Kau pulak, macam mana kau
boleh mati....?

Hantu 1 : Aku kena serangan sakit
jantung...

Hantu 2 : Oooo...cam mana kau boleh
kena serangan
sakit jantung?

Hantu 1 : Sebenarnya aku dapat tahu
isteri aku
curang. Suatu hari, aku balik ke rumah
secara
mengejut. Aku nampak ada kasut lelaki
kat depan
pintu. Aku tahu mesti isteri aku
sedang bermesra
dengan jantan lain.. Aku berlari masuk
bilik tidur,
cuma ada isteri aku...aku tahu mesti
jantan tu
bersembunyi kat
mana2..aku lari masuk bilik air, tak
de jugak,
kemudian aku lari ke tingkat bawah,
tengok dalam
setor, pun tak ade...aku lari naik
tingkat atas semula,
tengok dalam almari.....sebab terlalu
penat
aku berlari la aku kena sakit
jantung...memang sakit
dan akhirnya....

Hantu 2 : Apasal kau tak tengok dalam
peti ais...kalau

tak, kita berdua masih hidup lagi

sekarang ni....

pictures that speak a million words`

yesterday..

today..

my mask is really thick.. =(








i HATE myself..

mondays..

was out to saberkas with my mum just now.. anyway.. results are out today.. they're too beautiful to be mentioned here.. x) anyway.. went to idp earlier this afternoon n sat for some english proficiency test.. it was.. easy.. n quite silly.. hehe.. there was an essay for me to write.. 3 to choose from.. i chose, "describe in detail what you do during your free time".. as anyone can expect especially someone named mr kelly, i included "spending hours in a bookstore".. x) i'm typical.. hehe.. hmm.. i'm still in my solemn lonely heavily depressed mode.. sigh.. anyway.. washed dad's car this morning.. n NO! i didn't get to wear my bikini while doing that.. i don't want the whole neighbourhood to come hula-ing at my gate n gloat.. hehe.. anyway.. went to get two cute doggies for my sis n bro in law in darwin.. since they got me some belated xmas gifts.. got a nice striped paper bag for it too.. x) hmm.. got my rm30 reload.. went to get ice cream after that.. from the bottom floor.. the soft ice cream.. it's VERY nice n not VERY sweet either.. went to ngiukee.. mum got herself some undies.. i didn't get what she meant when she asked whether i wanted anything.. so i tried on some shorts from cheetah.. weird sizing.. the khaki shorts sized S couldn't fit.. but the white beach pants fitted well.. both sized S.. hmm.. n the knee-length beach pants sized S couldn't fit either.. was it M or S.. hmm.. strange.. anyway.. i took the white beach pants.. x) yay!! hehe..


mum: i didn't bring enough money orh..
me: mm i brought some..
*goes to the cashier to pay*
me: *takes out my rm20* how much do u have left?
mum: i dono ar.. u said u have le..
me: yeala i only brought 20 bucks..
mum: *asks the cashier* how much?
cashier(my ex classmate dyg emi emilia!): rm29.52(in bm)
mum: *turns to me* how much ar?
me: rm29.52.. how much do u have??
mum: *counts her paper notes* 9.. u said u have le!!
me: yeala!! i only brought 20!!
mum: *digs pocket* got 50 cents here.. *digs more*
me: *starts to laugh* hehehe..
mum: u la! say u got.. ask u just now whether u want anything didn't tell me or i would be able to use my card..
me: hahaha! how i know i will find something.. hehehe..
mum: haiyaaa... *digs harder*
me: y don't u go get from the car le??
mum: eh oh yea hor.. we come back ar..
cashier: alrite..
*walks to the car, we found a nice spot in front. hehe*
me: *goes in to collect*
cashier: chun ar?
me: yep! *laughs* hehe.. thank u!!


hahaha! alright.. next time i'll bring more cash out.. hehe.. i'm getting kinda broke with my ringgit notes.. sigh.. but it doesn't kill if i'd spent it on my friends.. love them lots.. hehe.. i'm not THAT broke.. my aud$200 is lying low in my closet.. another aud$50 is coming end of this month.. plus rm440.. x) n i'm gonna spend when i get to kl this june.. hehe! any requests or anything from kl??? hehehe.. hmm.. i need to get more shorts.. anyone have any idea where i can get nice beach pants? shorts? white ones? i love them! hehe.. dum di di dum dum.. i need some sweat pants too.. hmm i wonder where i can get them.. hehehe.. gonna go walk around town again tomorrow.. hopefully.. HOPEFULLY i won't get killed halfway.. in this mood, i'm not aware of things around me.. sigh.. i'm up for some games.. rock fever, daytona, jurassic.. x) i'm still a kid.. hehe.. oh well.. that ends my blog for today.. i've nothing else to say.. hmm..

i'm lonely..
so lonely..
i want some caring..
thanks suleen..
for being there..
thanks caryn..
for being a rotten chiwi.. x)
thanks anthea..
for what i don't know..
thanks happy..
for what i don't know too..
I NEED HUGSS!!
I NEED ATTENTION!!
I NEED CARE!!
i need.. sigh..

tired...

it's late.. but i still can't sleep..
so lonely..
i need a hug...............
i need.. HUGSSSSS!!!!

i wish to be on a mountain top where the cool breeze bellows upon my face..
i wanna stare into the wide open sky..
i wanna break down and cry..

tears of sorrow..*

sundays`

hello peeps..im blogging again.. just keeping my life updated.. today is just another sunday.. but today i'm filled with sorrow.. i just want to break down n cry so badly.. i feel so lonely.. i wish there's someone to care for me.. to love me.. to wipe away my tears.. to put that smile on my face.. to hold me close.. to tell me not to be afraid.. sigh.. woke up at 8 this morning.. went back to sleep till 9.. took my warm bath.. mum told me when i came out of the bathroom.. suleen's grandma passed away yest.. it's common for my mum n i to look through the classified section of the papers so that we know if anything happens to anyone n we can always send our condolences to them.. anyway.. got changed.. i felt so sloppy n rugged today.. was gonna wear my now extremely loose one of my favs white fila tee.. but it makes me look even worse.. my jeans were loose n dropping n baggy already.. brought my sweater along.. wasn't feeling very well somewhere deep down inside.. sigh.. went to have my breakfast without any appetite.. was gonna go back home n change my sandals.. wanted to wear my softie cover ups.. but i didn't.. went to church.. "kuai kia"[as referred by my dad] kelvin was being an usher n he forgot to wear his mask.. instead, i was the one with the mask.. hidden behind the smiles.. i wanted to break down and cry badly.. wanted to throw my mask away.. but i gotta control myself.. so i just sat there.. blindly.. went to fill up my bottle before the service started.. i finished my water.. my mind was floating away.. somewhere else.. i just don't know where.. but i know that i was not myself.. i'm greatly filled with sorrow.. n with no one made me better at all.. sigh..

went to kenyalang after church.. looked for the new mandy moore movie that my sis wants.. went to the coffee shop next to mum's office for lunch.. had some vege.. went to crowne square after that.. i was in a super grouchy mood cos i soooo badly wanted to go home n change out my clothes n shoes.. but my dad was being stubborn n ignorant.. =( up the elevator, n my sandals broke.. so went home after that.. bodyglove had nice slippers but not my size.. sigh.. changed out my clothes.. filled my bottle.. wore my softie.. went to saberkas after that.. got a new pair of sandals from ngiukee.. had no idea where else to go.. got my last one from SOS.. mum skinned me.. it was 16-1+1.. i have 16 pairs of shoes.. i think.. i lost count.. mum says i have to get another pair soon.. went to look at luggages.. hmm.. mum says i need one for all my shoes.. went to guardian to do some stuffs.. looked around to check out my new mobile.. i have a good enough new cam so figured i don't need a phone with a super good quality camera.. i just wanna listen to songs n sms.. checked out some notebooks too.. is Acer better than Dell?? hmm.. oh well.. came home after that..


*ivanna is getting fully annoyed cause her phone keeps ringing with some stranger looking for someone named chris*


anyway, took my bath, crawled into bed.. i feel so tired.. like im down with insomnia or something.. i wanna sleep.. but everytime i close my eyes i cant sleep.. i can't rest my mind or anything.. something keeps bugging me.. sigh..


suleen.. u have my condolences.. i know how it feels like..

sigh.. i still miss my grandma.. it's been a year plus since she left.. it just isn't the same without her anymore.. no more trips to sibu.. no more granny to cry n complain to.. no more granny to hug n kiss.. no more granny to massage.. i feel like it's my fault.. it was my fault to being so eager to go out n leave her alone.. it was last year.. went to sibu with mum n sis on the 2nd day of cny.. she was so happy to see us.. but we didn't spend time with her.. we kept going out shopping and stuff.. it was the fourth day.. we went out.. shopping.. i so badly wanted to go shopping.. mum n sis wanted to go back actually.. but we went shopping anyway.. when we came home.. i went to take my bath first.. when i came out.. my cousin, mum, sis, aunt were in granny's room.. they kept calling her.. i didn't know what went wrong.. i asked sis.. and she told me.. i ran upstairs n shut myself in the room.. crying myself to bits.. i blamed myself.. i shouldn't have insisted on going shopping.. i still blame myself till today.. my aunts n uncles told me.. my grandma kept wishing to see me.. n my sis.. badly.. my aunt said it's like.. her wish came true already and she's at peace to go.. but i didn't get to spend time with her.. the moment she left i felt so downhearted.. all i wanted was to go and visit her.. but i let myself get tempted to go out instead n leave her alone at home with the maid.. grandma.. if u can hear me now.. all i want would be for u to be happy.. i know you're in heaven.. all your pain is gone.. i know that you're resting in peace and with our Heavenly Father.. i love you grandma.. you know i always do..


i guess i better stop blogging now.. i've said enough for today.. i've nothing else to say.. i've some pics below.. night nights people..

how many bruises do u see..? i have plenty.. sigh..

i feel so lonely..

i need a hug..


* if u're wondering whr was i in those two pictures.. in the laundry room.. sitting on the floor leaning on the washing machine.. feeling all lonely and solemn..

i feel so lonely..
i feel so unloved..
i feel so uncared for..
all i want is someone to hold me close..
to tell me it's alright..
i need a hug..
i'm lonely..
i have bruises everywhere..
but the biggest bruise is in my heart..
i'm all alone..
my shoulder hurts..
i need some caring..
i need some love..
*filled with tears of sorrow*

- lonely -

hmm..i was out yest.. went to catch the latest movies.. 300 n Bridge to Terabithia.. 300 was better.. but the worst parts come when the heads r cut off n blood starts spilling n gushing out.. >< ruined my appetite.. haha! anyway.. picked anthea, went to sidewalk, happy came.. we had our dinner.. smth funny..


me: *halfway playin poker, msg comes in*
caryn: whr u now?
me: sidewalk? about to have dinner?
caryn: eat shit ar din tell me..
me: *blur* huh? haha *calls caryn* weih u joining us for dinner?
caryn: nope..
me: then y u ask me eat shit i dowan eat shit lah..hahahha!


hmm.. caryn u're weird! hehehe.. but i still love u.. hugs!! anyway.. caryn came to join us for a drink.. my appetite was.. bad.. tummyached.. guess i got too hungry.. x) i vomited out my breakfast anyway.. had a bit of lunch.. so i guess that was why my tummy kept growling.. haha! hmm.. when the bill came, we were all in nightmode.. couldn't read properly.. we read rm167.20.. actually it was rm107.20.. hahaha! it was pretty silly.. bleh.. x) mum called me after that said i have to be home.. it was only 9!!!! ><>< so much for having to spend a night out with my sexy ladies.. grr.. oh well.. tossed n turned in bed whole night but couldn't sleep a wink till almost 2.. sigh..

woke up at 7 this morning.. realised that my alarm haven't even rang yet..AGAIN.. it's been like this for days.. so i went back to sleep.. tried to sleep.. till 8.. was dead tired.. mum made noodle with soup with an egg.. i so badly wanted to vomit it all out.. couldn't swallow one single bit.. so i had 1/3 of it.. n mum said to throw the rest away then..
1. the noodle tasted weird,
2. it was from my mum's boss someone from school gave a whole big bag to his wife so he gave some to mum n Yvonne n Tus,
3. all i wanted for breakfast was anything but some yucky egg staring at me in my bowl of noodle,
4. i had noodle for breakfast yest so how do u expect me to swallow some more noodle today?

hmm..so i went to buy my miserable lunch..cha sio pau..i reached imh at 5 past 9.. i was late.. but class starts at 9.10.. the kids can't dance for long.. changed into my leotard, stockings n shoes n dragged my sorry feet into the dance hall.. start with the same boring warm up.. conducted their class.. it was boring.. it dragged on to 10.. amanda wasn't there.. =( the next class was.. oh well.. boring too.. then there was a kid.. jacelyn.. with her english story telling.. her mum isn't fluent in english so she got her daughter to bring her story script to ballet house n get our russian teacher madame natalya to help her.. in the end, it was pushed to me.. so my tummy continued growling till 12.30.. n her mum decides to kidnap me next saturday for noodles.. help! sigh.. i guess i'll just tell her my next class is at 1.. hehe.. not to be finding excuses.. but she speaks chinese n i was slurring all my chinese words just now.. im bad at it alrite? =( went to eat my lunch.. by then, cold lunch.. had tummyache again after that.. wanted to vomit but didn't.. whew.. helped with the classes from 1-4.. my class starts at 4.. by then, i was.. TIRED.. SLEEPY.. HUNGRY.. ACHING.. i just wanted my bolster to sleep on at that moment.. sigh.. but i did fine.. no worries..

came home.. had some peppermint cake.. mum baked again.. played my piano.. had my dinner.. mum made too much.. i felt so bloated.. i only ate a bit.. went to laze on the couch n dad decided to bite my ass.. i was tired n he thinks that being in the ballet house helping n dancing since 9-5.30 isn't tiring.. urgh.. mum went to take her bath so i had to listen to dad's "sermon"..

me: *half listening to dad, gets up*
dad: im talking to u sit down first..
me: *sighs, sits painful butt down on the floor*

it droned on n on.. sigh.. mum came out n i quickly rushed in.. after that.. i crawled into bed like a lil baby.. haha! SERIOUSLY!! my bolster felt soooo soft and comfy.. it was only 8.. n i just slept.. it was very quiet n lonely n boring.. except for the songs i left playing on my phone.. just some soft music to put me to sleep.. woke up at 10 when mum came in.. i couldn't really sleep anyway.. guess i was too tired.. so i threw myself out of the room n went to sleep on the couch.. hehe.. ended up sitting here in front of the comp.. i'm so tired already.. sigh.. goodnite..


some photos for u ppl to laugh at.. x)



i feel flexibly stretched!

beatrice n me..she cudnt stretch on the floor so she used the bar to hold her legs back..that's a 135deg angle..

peace!! we're happy.. hehehe..

i didn't want her to fall on my head..

i look so..happy..x)

it's like..so blue..hehe..

so.. green?

pinkish..hmm..took this just now..came home to my bolster..

got this from happy last nite..it was our graduation day..hahaha! i look so.."mean" oh n i just realised.. my eyes r as thin as my specs' legs..hahahaha!!

oh my baby basket..hehe! i love it..x)

momentary silence..
i feel so lonely..
it's so quiet..

bibbidi bobbidi boo`

the weather today is super blardy hot..i decided to stay at home and accompany my bolster.. been out with caryn n kelvin.. thanks for d ride kelvin bums.. hmm..1st day out, accompanied mr bums for lunch.. *piak* i was terribly bullied.. went to pick caryn up then.. and we went to jade pot tea house[i think?].. i seriously didn't bother to look at the name.. it's the one at the corner same block with hidden treasure at song thian cheok road.. hmm.. sat there n drank n laughed with caryn till we forgot the bums.. hehehhe.. sorry!! u were so quiet.. we didn't forget u actually.. no worries.. hehehe.. [i feel so bad] hahaha! by 4.30, caryn wanted to go to the loo.. but she wanted to go to hilton's? or riverside's? tsk tsk.. bad girl.. haha! but anyway, we went back to tj after mr bums parked his car at the same spot..again.. ahhaha! went across the road to tj.. i ran n nearly got strangled.. x) im good.. hahaha! oh yea!! mr bums got a summon.. told him he has to put his parking coupon but his lazy bums didn't want to walk back to the car.. *piak!* anyway, the cleaner wasn't there so we all ran in n had free use of the loo.. huhuhu!! x) how uncivilized.. haha! waited for caryn outside.. and we just stood at the centre of the building looking down at d exhibition of woods.. hahaha! how lame n boring.. hmm.. anyway, went down to wait for my mum then.. so i went home after that.. took another cooling bath.. it felt sooooo goodddd.. especially after a whole afternoon being pushed n bullied by my bums.. hey i was being nice!! x) hahaha! oh well.. managed to make a deal with mr bums after that to take us out again the next day.. huhuhu!! thanks babe! x)

anyway, it was usual.. met up with mr hot bums at tj, accompanied him for his lunch since his mum's not in kch n he won't cook.. *piak* laziness.. huhuhu.. anyway.. i nearly slammed into the wall thanks to someone who ate too much for lunch and became mr bigger bums.. hehehe.. x) we went to pick caryn up again after that and headed to hock lee.. played jurassic with mr bums since caryn was sleepy.. the game is getting worse n worse.. lousy guns.. huhuhu.. n i was terribly squished and sandwiched by the two knuckleheads.. my bums r still aching.. huhuhu.. x) played daytona with d leftover tokens.. caryn didn't want to play.. i was about to win the race when 'somebody' rammed into my car n made me skid off the road.. grr.. *piak!* went to get caryn's things from the car n went up to the foodcourt.. ordered some drinks.. helped her drew.. mr bums disappeared.. hahaha!! anyway when he came back, caryn shot a stupid question at him that made us "peng".. hahahaha! horny caryn.. sounds very corny.. huhuhu.. anyway.. help caryn drew her "boxes".. n her apple.. n her champagne glass.. huhuhu.. we just sat there n stared into space n laughing at caryn n her "ball".. hahahaha!!!! bleeeehhhhhh... bad caryn.. vulgarity.. hmm.. *smack caryn's butt* hahaha! x) after that, we went back to tj again to wait for my mum n i went off after that.. came home.. bath, dined, watched step up.. parents decided to play with their new toy.. the blood circulation foot massage machine.. sis called.. chatted with her.. told her about their new "toy"..


sis: how much izit?
me: 1k++
sis: HAAA?!?!? that piece of money can use to buy airticket to visit her daughter here la!
me: *laughs n tells mum*
mum: haiya our daughter should be buying the tickets for us if she wants us to visit her
me: *continues laughing* u heard her.. hahaha!
sis: nope... i pretended i didn't hear anything..


my family is crazy.. so lovable.. hehehehe.. *bish piak* anyway.. everyday my mum will smack my bums n poke my birthmark.. why? cos it's on my bums! x) grr.. anyway.. was watching mickey n minnie's sweetheart stories just now during lunch.. got so bored.. haha! n dad humoured me.. x)


dad: my cooooooooooolllll.. my coooooooooooooollll..
me: *huh?*
dad: *starts marching into the leaving room* my cool.. my cool.. [the heigh-ho song tune]
me: *stares wide-eyed at dad*
dad: nice or not? ahhaha! my cooooooooolllllll...
me: *cracks up*


hahaha! that's how crazy it's been.. actually eversince my third sis left.. this home had been more like a home.. hahaha! i feel sooo cracked up sitting at home everyday.. hahaha! but i've been going to popular every single day since my sis left for perth last tuesday.. so when i decided to stay home today..


me: *leaning on couch whilst sitting on the floor n msging*
mum: today not working at popular anymore?
me: huh?? *blur*
mum: hehehehe.. not working at popular anymore ar?
me: grr.. haiya!




after a while.. dad took his shot at me..


dad: "an chua?" [how? in hockien] finished reading every single book in popular already ar?
me: ><>
dad: *laughs*


sigh.. i'm like a laughing stock.. hahaha.. ok.. i'm funny.. i admit it.. x) practically humorous.. even my sis decided to take a shot at me b4 she left.. i injured my shoulder the saturday b4 she left.. n it looks very disgusting.. i figured that my humerus got dislocated from my collar bone.. so i asked her that nite..


me: *points at arm* this is humerus rite?
sis: izit? *laughs*
me: *blur* humerus..humorous.. haiya!!!


haha! urghhhhhh.. anyway.. went to timberland to check up.. doc said it's nothing.. but i still think that it's something.. hmm.. anyway.. i was right.. mum went to see doc lee with dad at nanas road to get some med.. n mum asked him bout it n he said the humerus got dislocated from d collar bone.. SEE!! i'm right! i've had enough injuries to know what's wrong.. x) haha! anyway i have a new bruise.. it's behind my head.. and i'm lucky that i didn't get any concussion like the time my mum went over the sp sidewalk by accident n i got the huge impact n knocked my head hard of the side of the car n had headache every once in a while for days.. couldn't even sleep properly.. hmm.. bumsy mum.. huhuhu.. x) anyway.. eversince i knocked my head the night b4 my throats been drying up, my eyes too.. n i get dizzy n blurred vision at times.. hmm.. piak.. all thanks to my bums who mentioned "ducky" n made me fall backwards n knocked my head..ouch.. it hurts babe.. urghhh.. well.. i don't know what else to blog about.. i assume this to be a long post already.. hehehe.. x) oh well..


some pics...

my super soft n cuddly bolster!!!

it's just soooo cuddly.. i bring it everywhere.. except the toilet!

it's the first thing i cuddle everytime i enter my room, enter the house or anything..

my ballet babies.. L-R: Esther, Larissa, Amanda..
Larissa n Amanda r sisters.. amanda's 6, larissa's 8..
Amanda is a BABY and is always sticking to me, pulling my hangs to hug her, holding my hands, hugging me, hugging my legs.. she's soooo sweet n cute.. i didn't plan to have esther in the picture but she came out from behind the curtain n sat down immediately.. oh well.. hahaha! sounds so crude of me.. hehehe..

i just wanted to cuddle smth furry so i just pulled this dog.. no intentions.. hehe.. my lion was too far away.. hmm.. n i have no other bigger plushes.. all in the cupboard in my parents' room.. hmm..



alrite! that's all.. toodles peetoots! hehehe.. hugsss!!

baby.. thanks for understanding my needs..
ur decision to put this on hold, i have nothing to say..
but thank you..
for everything..