bruises......

i have sooo many bruises.. the last time i counted i had 10.. now i think i have 12.. maybe more... sigh.. the reason..?? my blood ain't sticky enough.. somehow it runs from which side of the family i don't know at all.. my eldest sis gets the same thing too.. so, we bruise easily.. and sometimes we bruise for no reasons.. so the bruises that i got lately, i don't know where i got them from.. after dancing from 10 to 5 on monday, i came home to find myself having SEVEN bruises.. the worst one? i got on thursday.. it's the first 3 pics below... and i have absolutely NO idea how i got it.. i didn't fall down or knock into anything... how bad can i get...? sigh.. anyway.. it's late.. i wanna sleep.. nights! =D



when i got home yesterday.. [thursday]

after my bath before bed..

when i woke up.. horrid? =X

long ago.. i used to get this EVERY WEEK.. no jokes.. im serious..

yet, i still camwhore.. =D

my apple salad.. with ham slices..

my other salad with lettuce and spicy tuna.. yummy..

my two very reliable students.. =D they were the only 2 that came on sat..

love this dress.. but it's very "old" in a way.. i just love the way they made it look like a two piece clothing.. =D

my STRAWBERRY SMOOTHIE!!!!! i did it myself... extremely sour[no sugar added] yet smoothing and nice... i LOVE strawberries... =D







i love u more than strawberries..
you know who you are..
=)

tagged.

Here are the rules:

1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.


8 facts about ME:

• i love to cut myself up
• i'm vain
• i'm lazy
• i love my friends
• i'm pathetic and depressed
• i SMS like there's no tomorrow
• i enjoy torturing myself
• i love to dance my heart out

my 8 lucky picks

• dexter
• jason
• eric
• amber
• emily yii
• gerald
• caleb
• anyone who's bored

why....

why do i have to be jerked around all the time.


do men have to be jerks?
is that the way to treat a girl who cares.

why are things always going wrong for me.



why can't my wounds heal.
why can't i ever stop bleeding.






i don't have a heartbeat anymore.
i'm an empty shell.
all out of place.
all out of love.


i might as well die.
at least my sufferings will end that way.

depression..

painful..? not really..

on my tummy..


why...? why i hurt myself...? the reason can't be explained.. it's just recent.. things happen for a reason.. but mine, has many reasons.. by hurting myself, i'll feel less pain deep down inside.. i'm all torn.. i feel so broken.. if only i have someone who would understand the way i feel inside.. =(



some pictures taken 2 nights ago.. tossed and turned but i just couldn't sleep.. i was tired.. but no, my mind just won't rest..



getting some sleep at last..

peaceful sleep..

still trying to sleep..





i'm still trying to sleep.. trying to close my eyes, rest my mind, fall into a deep slumber, waking up the next morning, feeling much better, n happier, but no.. i can't.. i'm so lost.. i'm so confused.. by what...? i don't know.. maybe suleen's right... i'll regret what i've done to myself.. but i know i won't.. i just need one thing.. only one.. and i don't know what it is either.......

tagged by amBABI =D

I've been tagged again.. and i haven't done Cheeser's tag either.. tagging seems to be fun eh? =) ahh.. tagged by ambabi.. or also known as amberboo or berberboo.. =D sometimes it's ambank.. =P alright.. i'm supposed to post an ugly picture of myself.. unfortunately, i don't have any in my lappy.. so unfortunately, i'll have to do make-do with a funny face instead.. =D i never figured out the reason why i took that picture.. it was end of last year when my 3rd sis came back for hols.. she LOVES laughing at me.. sometimes i find it weird.. in her opinion, most of the things i do is funny.. like when i start dancing around madly, singing my theme song "Hakuna Matata" or burping out loud.. it's nice to make people laugh.. =D okay okay.. let's get going..

here's my "funny" face.. i look horrifying right? =D yes, u can start laughing at me.. =D i'm not embarrassed.. i was born to make the world a happier place.. so laugh!! =D

the next few peeps that i tag to do this??
SULEEN!!! =D
dexter!
eric kor!
jason kor!



settled!! ambabi i don owe u anymore!! =D




okay.. a fire broke out the previous saturday.. i was halfway teaching the 3 p.m. ballet students when fire trucks started rolling by and the ambulance and the police.. it was hazy dazy.. i heard thunder earlier and i thought it was going to rain.. later i realised that it was explosions.. =S i opened the curtain and saw "dark clouds" which turned out to be smoke.. then mdm natalya's husband came in and told us that a fire is going on.. he opened the other small window that was barred by the barre and we peeped at the fire.. it was the Hyundai Car Shop getting burned down.. we got better view of it at the other side of the building.. and i snapped some pictures.. it was scary.. you can actually hear explosions and the fire roaring upwards.. courts mammoth was really lucky.. or so we say.. anyway, the fire brigades were trying to tackle the fire.. and the water from the hydrant was REALLY SMALL!!! it barely reached the 2nd floor verandah.. and the fire was getting BIGGER.. the roofs were flying and objects were exploding into the air.. it was like watching a war going on.. =D *touch wood* oh well.. the whole 3rd floor was burned down.. except for the stiles.. or poles.. or.. hmm.. =D anyway, the pics i took..



fire!!!! everyone were like, "i've never seen a fire before!! so cool!!" =D

scary isn't it?

at about 5p.m..

Hyunday Chin & Sons.. Since 1955.. sad.. the owner must be pulling his hair right now.. =D



anyway, the showroom was still fine.. think it was the workshop at the back that caught fire first.. i expected to see the news and the story behind the fire in the papers, but none of it.. sure, Hyundai isn't as important as Sarawak Club.. but still, they should tell the story.. imagine people driving pass.. "ey look! that building's "black".. i wonder what happened to it.. =D i know.. i'm evil.. hehe.. but it's true.. i didn't see the news at all..





AUSSIE RATE IS SHOOTING UP TOWARDS THE SKY!! =D

but i'm still considering changing my aud$100.. i can save it and use it when i go perth to buy strawberries.. =D





sigh..
it's tiring to be sick.. =(
guess i got my butt frozen last night.. i actually went to bed with double clothes and wrapped myself up in my thick blanky.. and i was still freezing.. and i couldn't stop sneezing when i woke up.. sigh.. =( being sick makes me depressed.. i'm craving for strawberry yogurt.. and strawberry ice cream.. and strawberry yogurt smoothie.. and strawberry juice.. and strawberry smoothie.. and strawberry cake.. and strawberry jam.. and strawberry pie.. and strawberry cookies..

i'm a strawberry fanatic..
it drives me insane to not have what i want.. =D






here ends my post..
praying for a better day ahead and better health. Amen. =)





i miss you..
where have you gone..
i need you so much..
come backkkkk!!!! =(


hehe.. miss chiwi and apple!! and some say batam.. =D

I'M LAZY TO BLOG!!!

people bugging me to blog.. okla.. i'll leave pictures to tell u wad's been up in my life.. =D

they're at RANDOM but the first two was taken today k?

hmmmm... caryn's sexy halter top

should i smile?

at SC's toilet..

apple planet and banana planet.. kiwi planet below there looking small and fragile.. =D

caryn's lasagna and salad and ice blended caramel..

my chicken salad and strawberry yoghurt smoothie.

the free cookies the sweet girl gave us.. i know it looks obscene.. suleen did it..

at jade pot today.

crashing in caryn's room.

wanna be - cool; pretty; cute

my sexy baby is a poser.. =D

i murdered caryn's pig.. =D

I LOVE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =3

caryn's lovably dog or bear? haha

at bing!

SC's loo. she's hot.

we're so flimsy.

i love this pic!!

we managed to squeeze into suleen's screen.. haha =D

rawr she makes me feel over-height.. is there such word?

she said i crapped and laughed at myself too much n she stuffed a strawberry into my mouth.. =(

her armpit smells. =D

suleen made me do this so-called model pose..

i look devilish.. ok me n caryn looked like suleen's left shoulder devils..

at bing!

memory.

getting caryn ready for her "date".

the cranky crazy make-up artist with her small "sepet" eyes..

vaining over caryn's mirror..

she said i'm her angel.. =D


told u the pics are at random.. pick your favorite and glue your eyes to it.. =D joking.. alright alright!! i'll update more.. but not now k? i've a class to teach at 9.. no break till 4.. till 5.30 would be my class.. sigh.. I NEED A BREAK!!!! =D anyway.. missing my friends.. and people who are distant.. =( *sniff*



mwahs!




xoxoxo`






tata!







COME ON!!!
IT'S OVER!!!!
SHOO!!
SCOOT!!
GO SLEEP!!
I'LL SEE YOU TOMORROW!!!



=D


`loves